Venting Thread
- Locked by Carri04 on Oct 29, '23 9:13pmReason: Sorry you gotta deal with this.
Thread Topic: Venting Thread
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And for some reason, I've been hearing someone pull on the front door handle multiple times today. I swear I heard it, even if others think I'm crazy, and my pets heard it too. They even jumped up from the noise. I looked outside and saw that no one was there... yeah, I don't know what's happening. Have a guess of who the person was. If I'm right, I'm scared since they came by before, but either way, this has been happening for a while and I can't shake off the feeling that I'm being watched or smth wherever I go or at least where I live. Reminds me of stuff I don't like and scares me so much now
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I'm worried. He's been gone for a few days now. It's usually normal but not even the alters have said anything back to their friends or anything for these past 4 days. I'm fearing it's another su1c1de attempt and don't know what to do. I'm trying my best to give support and help but just wish there was better communication in order to do that
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My fam keeps bouncing back from having average amount of money to not having much at all and having to eat anything that's left in the fridge. I wish my mom could get a job but it's all my fault cuz of me not taking care of my health... Even though my family is the worst, I still feel bad and, not only in these types of situations, do I feel like I'm causing everyone to suffer.
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I see why we'd have to possibly give away the dog but I don't want to lose her too. She's the only one in the house who's keeping me calm atm
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I just wish I had a loving family. That's all I ask for and for there not to be anymore drama in my life. The way I live with family probably isn't normal. The way a person doesn't even feel comfortable in their own home and has to look back every two seconds to get in and out the house probably isn't normal either. Especially, when the neighbors aren't the only thing you're fearing
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I couldn't control my tears today. No one has been listening to me. No one has been there for me. It's probably selfish to want to have a support system but I'm just tired of emotional neglect and it's my fault for not being able to manage friendships.
Everyone keeps hurting me physically and emotionally and I don't even know what to do abt it. My health is bad. I may be getting surgery and I'm honestly hungry rn. I hate my family so much and wish I didn't need to live here anymore. I just want to be saved from this.
And if my mom weren't around controlling me, I would've already put myself in a diabetic coma. It's that easy but my mom is only keeping my health in good condition in order for people not to look at her crazy like she's not taking care of her daughter. -
It's my fault I lost everybody cause I'm so stupid and just turned myself into the nobody I am today. Not even my family notices me when I'm right there.
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But then again, I'm probably being a selfish fool. I don't know what's normal and what isn't and even though I help people, sometimes, I wanna be helped too but can never get any assistance
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Lover may be de@d but I'm not sure. If so, I'm legit going to cry... He's the last person I have even tho we haven't been able to talk much recently
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Have you tried reaching out to your local mental health facility? Some of them offer free treatment which can include therapy and medication along with many community resources.
And I'm sorry that you are going through a difficult time. -
Problem is I'm not able to get a therapist atm or really any help rn with everything that's been going on irl. I've been trying to hold in there though but I don't think I'm doing too well w that
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I can't even control my tears anymore. I don't have any way to deal with my negative emotions. I hate crying but do it everyday uncontrollably. I want to do self harm but am only not doing it bc my he didn't want me to but I'm not even sure if he's safe or if I'm losing him. I probably am and will live with nobody.
There is an option of making friends but I've learned that whenever you show someone your vulnerable side, they'll leave you or ignore you until you give off positive energy. Plus, I'm not even able to make friends in general anyway. I don't know how and whenever I think I'm making a friend or that we're getting along, it's like the next day, they stop talking to me or ditch me for someone else. I'm trying to interact w others but it never works... Nothing works. And once I'm back in school, I'm going to feel the same lonely feeling all over again. But at least that student can't assault me again. That still scares me along w everything else in school. I just...hate all of it... -
Even though I don't like him and don't talk to him much, I found out my dad is depressed and tried to harm himself too. His feelings come from how much he hates living w diabetes and unfortunately, I can understand that. I don't want to be like him or relate to him at all, but it's true. We are sadly alike in some ways and it scares me. Not only that, but diabetes. It sucks so bad. I thought it would be easy to deal with in the beginning, but it's not and it's all my fault that it isn't. It's bc I can't handle myself and let my suicidal thoughts get the best of me.
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On the bright side, I got these new glasses that help me see things up close, from a distance, and I can even wear them when on devices too. It wasn't like my vision was that bad before, but these do still help, though, some things look more on the yellowish side w them on
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I've been trying to make friends lately. Often times, it ends in a fail but I'm still trying
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