Venting Thread
- Locked by Carri04 on Oct 29, '23 9:13pmReason: Sorry you gotta deal with this.
Thread Topic: Venting Thread
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Best thing happened then but I'm still a little cheesed out by the fact that my mom is still treating my sis as the favorite after all of my hard work. I'm trying and am just confused on whatever I have to do to be enough. I don't even know where my emotions are at atm so I'm not typing this while necessarily being sad, but I'm not typing this with any type of big emotion either.
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I think I'm feeling deep loneliness but am trying to act like I'm not bc I'm having some of the signs.
Even with other people, I feel lonely and unnoticed. I talk to objects and use them as more comfort and value than I probably should. That makes me sound crazy but I've been alone for too long and been talking to myself or objects or plushies as "friends" for too long. Someone help--
I'm having a lotta self doubt and sometimes overshare on things, like trauma and stuff to people I barely even know just bc I'm that desperate for help. My social skills are just plain terrible and this is kinda random too, but I haven't been able to sleep much either.
But idk, I think I'm good. I just need to get over things. Still, I keep fighting against su1c1de and all the pressure -
I've been trying to be more positive to fight off the negative thoughts though. At least Sonic Central is today but Sonic Frontiers kinda disappointed me. Either way, I'm still a little excited for that and am hoping that distracts my mind for the time being. I'm trying to keep busy, keep my mind going (only on positive things tho but negative sometimes creeps in), but mostly do the fun things I can to forget all the fear and negative events in my life. I'm still a lil scared tbh
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My brother is sick and has COVID and now I'm starting to feel sick too. I'm crying bc I'm so scared rn since being a diabetic and being sick in general already affects me too much. I'm trying to stay stress-free to avoid having a low immune system but idk if I can ever do that..
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I'll pray for you and your brother, I'm so sorry you're going through this and I hope you'll be able to overcome it *hugs*
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*Hugs back* Thank you, I hope for the same too but I'm at least glad that I'm not having as bad as side effects as others have talked about. Again, thank you and be sure to stay safe
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Still alive. Getting glasses soon. Found myself to be Rody Soul kinnie. Feel better from COVID. Hate being a diabetic and keeping quiet but trying and just dealing with life tbh.
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I feel like I annoy him even tho he says the opposite. I may just be overthinking and too sensitive to the littlest things but I can't help but feel anxious after something I did with no reply. I feel it's a sign that I let my feelings get the best of me instead of using logic and some events make me insecure. And I thought I was the logician type--
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Lowkey been wanting to talk to people and feel I'm falling out of friendships. It's not bc I want that. I want to try to talk to people but it seems I've became more anxious. Even when talking to friends, I feel that way. It's stuff like talking to them at the wrong time, being awkward, being weird, being boring cuz I legit look up "Questions to ask new people u meet" (Sykkuno moment), and in general, just embarrassing myself and doing smth wrong. It's not normal to be afraid of talking to friends (at least I don't think, still learning stuff), but honestly, I don't know what's normal at all.
Plus, these days, I've still been depressed and don't want to pass on those vibes. I'm focusing on helping myself but sometimes, I think I take 2 steps forward only to take 3 steps back. Most people only want to be near me whenever I'm positive and give off those vibes sooooo I'm kinda stumped and decided to mostly be by myself for a while. Don't wanna turn into a burden of any kind and with lack of social...um, ness, I'm bad at making friends and such. At least my sister says I got some problems there, along with other people so working on that -
With me not talking to my friends unless they talk first, it makes me feel bad cuz they may think I don't like them when I do, I'm just too shy to talk to anyone. Other times, I kinda want to be alone but most times when online, I don't. Don't know if they consider me a friend anymore either
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Strange tho bc whenever someone needs help, I drop in to help so easily, still shy but want to help someone and make 'em happy if possible
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They won't stop yelling. I want to go outside to get away but it's too late for that so I have to stay in here and stay anxious and stressed out
Hate yelling and fighting š
And stupid Atelophobia be controlling my mind again -
Heh, imagine being emotionally neglected.
Couldn't be me /neg -
I'm trying to look more into what helps Atelophobia but am not sure if the results are an option for me atm
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Sometimes, I wish I had friends but like, at the same time, I would still be shy and nervous w them and am learning how to even be a good friend but end up being a slave. That's literally the only way to please people or at least, people in my life
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