mission thread
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Thread Topic: mission thread
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day 25
6/10?
today was weird idk
mm idk i'm upset and bad as i have been
hmm i'm trying to think how to cheer up like buying things? but its not working
mm and i think i slept good well better anyway
but i'm still tired
hmm idk -
day 26
can't really rate it
idk what i did today -
day 27
well i'm not doing very good
but my head isn't painful dead like it was when i started this thread so maybe it has helped my head
i guess i'll feel better when i move
because i spend all day trying to cover up their talking with music
i'm struggling to sleep though
because i'm not comfortable and i want to be with him
idk, i do think i'm better than when i started this thread though -
day 28
hmm idk what i did today, i thought i felt better today even though i'm still bad
feel like calmer like he was trying to make me feel better
but i still don't feel good
i'm like really sad -
also yesterday i was thinking it might not be long because i feel so wack
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day 29
well i feel like we did quite a lot today
idk what though
it was still quite bad though
and i felt bad when i woke up again in the morning
i still think it won't be long again
and because i felt wack again today -
day 30
hmm well idk what i did today or how i am
i feel more tired than i have for a while
kind of bad
i mean, upset about him and i woke up feeling angry again
idk i think i'm upset
i think he gets upset when i think about him
he seems to disappear some time after -
day 31
idk i mean idk what i did on this day either
well i thought about him a lot
i'm worried he's upset
well i felt quite upset
hmm idk i feel upset
i feel like he's quiet or sad or a little far away -
day 32
hmm not very good
i felt dead and dusty and very dead like a real living undead
like got mad and getting mad :(
exhausted -
day 33
dk how i was on this day -
i sound really bad, i mean i sound like i'm not saying much because i feel so bad
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day 34
i feel like today would be minus like -10 but 10 too which is weird and makes me think its good
i felt like i didn't see him all day or couldn't see him because the people were loud and i was playing music to cover them
i felt quite bad i mean i feel quite bad atm
even though i'm trying so hard to get better/make it better
i feel wack again still -
day 35
i didn't feel good, idk
again, i was covering them with music :(
idk what to say -
day 36
today wasn't good
idk i mean i woke up feeling like i need to leave
then i felt trapped in
idk it sounds awful
i just don't want to hang around waiting for them to get me a house?? i can't deal with it anymore, hearing them in the hall, makes my self esteem low
i feel like i just can't take it anymore -
i feel like i felt like it was about to go away and now i'm half stuck in it and i feel confused and depressed??
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