mission thread
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Thread Topic: mission thread
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well i felt like dusty and dead and i had a headache all day
and then no one came to take me to the shop
so in the end i went on my own
i mean i was struggling with his situation
somewhat angry :( -
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well when i woke up the people were talking and music for hours so that wasn't good
i had to keep going out the back door for quiet
and then i was upset about something else for hours
i just i wasn't happy
also unsupported because they haven't been taking me to the shop???
all this stuff has an effect on me
i just want some nice clothes and i can't get any :( so that could help me go maybe? because everything is s--- and weird
i just feel angry atm??? i don't want to feel angry
so it looks like i couldn't talk now i'm angry
also i'm playing the boyfriend game a lot trying to win like i think i'm winning for real if i do it??? -
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well today first i was not happy because the social worker came even though i told them i didn't want to
the person made me a bit sad when they came and said how are you going to move if you don't see them
and then i was waiting for them to take me to the shop but they didn't and feel unsupported
it was loud too, felt like i couldn't escape again
and i was feeling very bacony and washed out like depressed sad
and then i felt peaceful and thought i felt different and when i thought about the end of october, 2 weeks, it seemed very spacey like it's enough time to achieve something
and i felt like i've done part of it , now i just have to do the rest of it
then i went to the shop and felt depressed sad
and had the dead sugar feeling when i fell asleep and woke up
also i've been playing the boyfriend game different -
i look like i feel unbearable living in this house :(
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feel sad today
idk i don't feel well
they were really loud in the morning
well then it was unusually quiet for a while afterwards
i fell asleep and didn't know what time it was when i woke up, like i thought it could've been the morning but it was the night???
i think i sound upset and like i should rest
and i feel very overtired i think
i think i have a sad washed out thing -
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i didn't feel well when i woke up
didn't really do anything today i mean just the usual stuff
i was thinking that it feels like i'm just waiting and barron
bit sad because i want someone to go to the shop with me but i'm probably going to have to go on my own again -
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it was loud when i woke up
and in the day
didn't really do anything today
well i finished the boyfriend game
had to go to the shop on my own
the day seemed slow again
idk i'm kind of struggling
with the issues of not being talked to again
but that issue dissapeared since last time
getting fed up >:( -
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today was weird :/
i slept most of the day on and off
but my head feels distorted like heavy sided, i don't know if its a supernatural thing or because i'm tired
and idk i feel out of it -
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idk i mean i think i'm exhausted
i found out that i can continue the boyfriend game so i've been doing that
went to the shop with reece and i was glad to go with someone and i could get more but it made me feel worse because i realized how much they don't support me
idk i mean as usual i've just been feeling like i need to get out of here
i'm feeling dire -
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idk i don't really know what i did today
oh i said i feel like i've got black deadness in me like a zombie pirate
uh i feel in kind of a bad state physically like i can't really move -
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idk i mean i feel real bad again
like i said i was dire when i started this thread and now i feel like that again
feel over exhausted
i feel out of it like far away -
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idk i mean i felt weird today like cold and wintery and asleep
i felt like far away and weird when i woke up two times
idk i just feel in a weird state
idk what else to say
my goal is still to get a house i guess -
i feel uncomforted
i want to know when i'll see him -
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didn't really feel like a day today
well i dreamt about zak and i felt better when i woke up
idk i mean i've just been doing the normal stuff i guess
i couldn't answer the door in a new way which made me feel like i'm getting better
i'm still tired and bad
need him
like lying on the sofa and leaning against the door
i feel kind of better though in a way
also don't feel like i like any normal food right now -
kind of a pattern? i feel uncomforted again
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