~ Rhi's Official Thread ~
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Thread Topic: ~ Rhi's Official Thread ~
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I had a dream last night that I was writing to my CF and I was all like, "Sorry you have to deal with a defective girl"
OMG my dream self is f---ing mean -
This isnt from something I wrote it my dream journal app on September 30, 2017
This is literally how I felt when I was noticing all the cooincidences in my music and was so freaked out when I thought he might be listening and have found out my secret
Oh my goodness I remember crying soooooo much that month. I could not stop crying. It was so crazy. And I was dreaming about him a lot and stuff lol -
This is*
Also, at the time I didnt know Rhiannah had anything to do with it, and didnt even remember I used to listen to Lights lol. I had forgotten I even listened to GATH and I was literally thinking to myself, crap I need to explain to him I pretty much only liked that for boats and birds -
And it was on December 20 I realized Rhiannah was my *twin*
And guess why?
Because when I was at her grandparents house hanging out with her (completely sad and depressed and nauseous over D, who hadnt talked to me since the 16th, and barely at all since I got back home from college), she was like Rhiannon is here and we were joking about our names being similar or something.
And she said Shes my twin
And all of the sudden it just hit me like a ton of bricks. I misunderstood. I remembered how she struggles with depression and sh too. And our names. And it just all made sense.
And when I was crying my eyes out in the car that afternoon and telling her about everything Rhiannah was comforting me and hugging me and telling me not to cry and making me laugh joking about going and beating D.L. up for me and calling him a loser
And I broke up with him that day with her help. Lol
Took me 4 days of being ignored
If I hadnt had her it would have taken me a lot longer
If I didnt have her... who knows what would have happened :/ -
I love how we were here comes right after morphine too
Cuz literally shes the one who blocked him
And then a couple days later I decided to unblock him but I hadnt realized that it removed the person as a friend (I had never blocked anyone before and Rhiannah sorta left out that part lmao)
So when I tried to add him back I went to Rhiannah bawling my eyes out even more and was angry with her for like a few minutes
But then came to my senses and was so f---ing thankful for her and wished Id never even tried to add him back.
Literally he made me feel like a complete piece of worthless s---
I felt so f---ing helpless when he wouldnt even acknowledge that I tried to add him back
f---ing ridiculous
Ugh
Forgiveness is great and all, but it is true that a person never really forgets the way someone made them feel.
Or at least for me. I will never forget it.
Just like Ill never forget a lot of things a lot of people in my life have made me feel.
Thats why the actions we take, or te *oats we sow*, I guess you could say, can never really be taken back. Once it is too late. Its too late. Simple as that. -
So yeah.
I guess I know when your heart stop beating,
Id never let you sink your teeth in. -
*I promise to never make you feel worthless*
But did you know that cost when you broke your promise?
And do you even care.... will you ever even care...? -
Sounds like you have a good friend..
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The best ever :3
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I wish I had one.
How'd you meet them? -
Rhi rhi
And hoe
How are u guys -
I don't appreciate being called that?
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XD
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No, I'm being serious, it's not the time.
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Well sorry was simply messing around lighten up its monday
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