because i liked a boy
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Thread Topic: because i liked a boy
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Karl watched Nick for a moment, a look of worry and guilt on his face as he realized what was happening. "No, yeah, uhm- Sorry, we- we can just watch a movie," he muttered, pulling away from Nick.
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“Okay, thank you,” Nick smiled a little bit, moving to his bag and grabbing his laptop. He moved to sit on the bed, opening it up. “What movie do you wanna watch?”
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"Just- Pick whatever," Karl mumbled, walking over to the bed and sitting down. He glanced at the glass of wine and picked it up, taking a long swig. "I think I'm just gonna, go to sleep," he added in a quiet voice, laying down. God, what the f--- is wrong with me? Why- Why am I acting like this??
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“Could you have a glass of water before you go to bed?” Nick asked quietly, frowning. “I don’t want you to have too much of a headache. I can go grab it for you.”
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"Sure, whatever," Karl mumbled, rolling onto his side with his back to Nick.
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Nick frowned deeply, hoping it was just the wine making him act like this. He stood, walking out of the room and going to grab a glass of water.
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Karl exhaled shakily, holding back angry tears. God, Karl, you can't just pull s--- like this- You always do this, always mess up a good thing... He rolled onto his stomach, burying his face in his pillow.
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Nick came back after a moment, sitting on the edge of the bed and nudging Karl’s shoulder. “Hun, c’mon, sit up. I’ve got a you a cold glass of water~”
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Karl slowly sat up, rubbing his teary eyes. "I-I'm sorry," he mumbled, his voice shaky. "I- I shouldn't have acted like- like that, and I- f---, I shouldn't even be drinking at all," he murmured, grabbing the cup of cold water and taking a sip.
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“Oh, hey, baby, it’s okay, it’s okay,” Nick said with a quiet giggle, moving to hug Karl. “Don’t cry, baby, it’s okay~”
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"Don't f---ing laugh at me," Karl muttered, his hands shaking. "I- I always do this, I always f-f--- everything up, just- just when things are getting better..."
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“No, honey, breathe, take a breath,” Nick said, forcing a straight face and pulling away from Karl for a second. “I trust you, hun. You had a little too much to drink tonight. You didn’t f--- anything up.”
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Karl exhaled shakily, tears beginning to roll down his face. "B-But it's- it's not just this, it's- it's everything," he muttered, guilt filling his voice. "I said t-the wrong thing, I- I did the wrong thing, I ate too much, I- I ate too little, I'm a-an attention seeker-" He let out a choked sob, burying his face in Nick's shoulder. "Why do I f--- everything up..." He murmured, his voice filled with defeat.
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“Karl, I don’t think you do any of those things,” Nick said softly. “On purpose, at least. Hun- if someone did the things you’re talking about, for attention, would you like them? Would you think they’re a good person?”
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"N-No," Karl murmured, lifting his head. He exhaled shakily, rubbing his eyes. "I-I'm sorry, I- I just- I worry, so much, that I'm doing the- the wrong thing. And I-I've been told I'm doing everything- everything wrong since- w-well, forever..."
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