alexithymia
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I feel so unloved at the moment
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why am i this worked up about my grades
ive got like two exams and an assignment due on thursday then i'll be pretty much finished with school stuff its just so stressful -
its weird bc i get validation all the time from my mum but since that's like most of the time and unconditional it feels like its not valid since i haven't actually done anything to earn it
but with grades its only four times a year so im like "this has to be good" because it feels like i've actually earned the good grades and the validation when i get As
and i've never had a lot of friends so i havent really gotten validation that way but since i was the "nerd" in primary school (cough cough my username) it ended up being the only validation i got because "im smart yay" but its been highschool for a couple of/ a few years now and its not as easy as it was back then so now im not getting that much validation for being smart so im just an average person in every way with the only person telling me otherwise being my mum which is just sad -
its weird bc im paranoid about eating healthy and im sure im eating enough most days and im making sure and/or being paranoid about drinking enough water and getting enough sleep and doing enough exercise
and despite all this im s t i l l getting a bunch of headaches and im s t i l l feeling depressed -
First off that's a sign of an eating disorder. Not trying to cause excessive worry or anything bc it could be nothing and I definitely could be overreacting, but just do with that information what you will
Headaches aren't necessarily a sign of any of that. Could be migraines or stress headaches or or a bunch of other factors... Ik you said you're getting enough exercise, but have you gotten enough vitamin D/gone outside enough? -
yeah true. idk about american schools but australia schools arent just one big building, its small buildings scattered around, so you have to actually go outside to get to your next class, which is around 20 minutes totaled up for the whole day, plus PE on the oval three times a week, so probably? idk i do spend most of my time indoors
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Okok that's not how schools where I am work, but we also have extreme weather a lot lol (*cough* sNoW and massive heat waves in spring/fall) but ik schools that operate like that. I get that, I spend most of my time indoors too. Idk if it's work for you, but if I ever feel super stressed and depresso, I like to do my homework outside bc it's usually a bit quieter and the fresh air is nice
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fair enough lol, we don't get that extreme weather here so i think most schools on the coast are like this (im so jealous of snow). maybe lol, sometimes the heat makes the headaches worse tho. plus ants i just dont like ants
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(it's all fun and games until the roads are super slippery and you have to spend an hour shoveling your driveway only for it to snow even more) Ohhh fair. Ew not the ants ahhhh
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(phht worth it) yeah lol
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I don’t want to be here
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Hopefully these will fade quickly
Anyway blasting Queen and My Chemical Romance is a good way to get through a breakdown -
do you want to talk about it on goodreads?
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not really. idk my brain was just waiting to snap lol, maybe later tho
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guys at my school are so weird wtf
i was bent over getting my laptop out of my bag and a guy TWO YEARS OLDER THAN ME walked past and said i have a fat ass (i do not)
so now not only do i have hip dysphoria but im scared to bend over because of comments about my behind
keep in mind ive never seen this guy in my life
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