i hope i was your favorite crime.
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Thread Topic: i hope i was your favorite crime.
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im such a f---ing dissapointment
my sister just tries to help w/ my math and i get pissed at her
my dad makes a joke abt how much I'm eating and i yell at him
I'm not thankful for any of the food i get
I'm just annoying and i rant abt the dsmp too much
hhh -
is it just me who doesn't really care to be understood?
like, validation from myself is only rlly important to me in that case
i mean, mainly cause i don't want to talk abt it -
just overthinking
bc my friend didn't text me back saying merry Christmas until Monday
and okay, ik she was busy and stuff
but i also asked if there was youth group on Sunday.
and she just said merry christmas-
like, i would of at least said- "yeah, there was youth group srry i couldn't get to you i was busy :("
but no, there was none of that.
and like, she probably just didn't want me there, and was grateful that i wasn't, bc we were sent a video of my friends mom talking on Sunday and the kids usually at the youth group were there in the background, so.
and another time, a friend of mine do this 'party trick', where she picks me up and she leans over and its fun.
but last time we did it, she kinda struggled to pick me up to put me down again. and she said- "your so h-"
and cut herself off.
like hun, thanks for trying, but ik you were gonna say i was heavy.
thank 3 -
I understand you- I'm 20 pounds over what I should be for my age- only my dad can lift me now- it's embarrassing and I try to exercise but it always turns back to eating...
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well- no im not 20- I should be 150 but- I'm 190 so... 40 lbs.
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i f---ing hate my sister.
her friend is over, so she's acting "cool and s---" which is normal, so idrc abt that
but then their making cookies
and I'm not the best at cooking, baking, etc.
so she just f---ing SLANDERING me at any chance she gets to make herself look good.
and she just mentioned the time her and a friend of mine went into the store to get stuff to make cupcakes (which sucked, but I'M STILL THE BAD COOK-)
and i almost said "oh, you mean the time you made cupcakes and body-shamed me, making a "joke" abt giving me the one you put too much batter in.
but i didn't.
bc I'm the good sister, here. -
im f---ing pissed.
my best friend acts like she "loves me" and s---, but its pretty obvious she doesn't.
so, we were supposed to go over to her house tonight for new years eve and stuff
i didn't rlly want to go bc ik she doesn't like me
but i was gonna, anyways, yk, why not
and she just sent a picture of a game that she was gonna play with my older sister, and the "original highschoolers" at my school
but she sent a picture of it, saying she was just gonna set it up so they could play when we got there
mind you, ur supposed to play this game w/ five people, MAX
and there are gonna be at least 6 people there.
at least.
and i honestly want to just say i feel sick (which i kinda do ngl)
and not go, bc i don't wanna get involved with that s--- -
nvm, apparently according to my sister im just being dramatic bc its not gonna happen today
i still don't wanna go -
i should probably drink smth-
but i also just took like the hottest shower in history, and i just feel good
like, rlly light -
i feel like s---.
my sisters are sick, so we can't go back to school today.
i didn't rlly wanna go, but now i feel unaccomplished and lazy bc now i can't do anything
i thought i was just feeling sick bc i wasn't drinking water or anything but apparently not -
idk why, but im kinda expecting my friends to text me saying they missed me at school today or smth.
ik they won't, but i can hope ig.
i mean, i always do it for them. always.
like, its not that hard. -
idk why i expected it.
still feel like s--- lmao. -
first sick day from being at this school tho-
whole two years :') -
not my sister making fun of/slandering a youtuber (who made my childhood, btw- i love him.) for taking a mental health break for four months :/
you might know him, its denisdaily
he took a mental health break because he needed to get into a better mindspace, he just wasn't doing great
but my sister exaggerated saying he was off for "LIKE SIX MONTHS"
it was four, b----. LESS THAN FOUR, ACTUALLY. CLOSER TO THREE
anyways-
i tried to mention the french guy in his videos (LuLu xD)
bc we had gotten on the topic of french (for some reason idk)
and they were like
"that's his one job, he cant just take a break!"
"that's so dumb, its pathetic,"
so i told them they sucked, didn't tell them the point of it and went upstairs to get ready for bed.
i hear them f---ING TALKING BEHIND MY BACK ABT IT DOWNSTAIRS WITH MY DAD.
LIKE THANKS FOR THAT YOU f---ING b---- YOU ACTUALLY SUCK
and I've haven't been the greatest the past week or so, since Kriss hasn't been on since Sunday (jan 2nd)
I'm almost 90% sure they got caught, but I'm trying to hope
so i cried for quite a bit.
and my mom asks why i don't defend these motherf---ers.
i dunno, you tell me.
they invalidate other feelings, and cannot grasp the concept of bad mental health, nevertheless mental health in general!
they're pieces of s---. just embodied. -
derealization go brrrrrrr
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