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This world is just too much for me.
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I honestly think I'd be happier dead. Letting all the bugs and worms feed on me, because unlike me, they want to live and thrive. You don't need to put me in a casket. You don't need to give me a gravestone. Just dig a hole and throw me in it. Or throw me into the ocean.
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I'm so stupid. I'm so irresponsible.
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I'm literally digging my own grave but I can't stop.
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It's kinda funny to watch me crumble like this. The taste of the consequences of your own actions is bittersweet. I was so confident I was going to get through, but look at me now. Haha. So many assignments I don't even know what to do.
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I wonder how long it will take for me to break. And when I'll shed my first tear from the stress. The cycle will repeat again, won't it? At least I gave it a shot.
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I'm going to fail my family again. I might as well die. The embarrassment is way too much to bare. My grandma says I'm still a baby, but I feel I lived enough life to know I'll never be a functioning adult. I'm just not meant for this world. I'm just too f---ed up.
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Everything I try to do, I end up failing horrifically. Who wants to live a life with no success or happiness? Why can't I do the simplest things? There's nothing I'll ever be good at.
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I just want to be a normal girl. I'm tired of being so messed up. Is it a crime to want to be able to do things right? I failed everyone. They were counting on me and I failed.
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I had one job. Graduate. I can't even do that properly. It's so pathetic. I'm ruining my family.
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I ruin everything. I ruin everyone's happiness. I ruin my friend groups. I ruin my family. I ruin school. Everything is torn to shreds because of me.
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I should've just died.
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It's all downhill from here
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Sometimes I feel like everything is already etched in stone. I was doomed from the second I was born. I was going to fail no matter what I did. That's just how my life was meant to be. Doesn't that make this all pointless? I'm trying to change a story that has already been written. I'm so desperate for a happy ending, but that's unobtainable. What does a happy ending even look like? I just wasn't meant to win.
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But the person I failed the most was myself. I say that I will change, but then I do nothing to actually grow. I put myself in s---ty positions, and I don't get out once I'm in it. I just let it get s---tier and s---tier until I can't bare it anymore. I tell myself I'm above asking for help. But really help is all that I need. I just say that I'm fine and that I'll be alright. Unfortunately, that's all a lie. I just don't want to swallow my pride. And any vulnerability I have I immediately dismiss. I ask for help, but then I never accept it when the chance comes by.
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