Venting Thread
- Locked by Carri04 on Oct 29, '23 9:13pmReason: Sorry you gotta deal with this.
Thread Topic: Venting Thread
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Yeah,I get typhoons really often but it’s just really a gigantic rainstorm.
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Yeah, but I'm afraid of everything ngl so I'm even afraid of that lol, luckily things haven't gotten too bad so far, it's only raining for rn and I still got internet
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Got through the storm but still have school tomorrow ugghhh, I really don't wanna go tbh
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There were therapy dogs visiting my school today and they were cute but also made me sad cuz one in particular looked exactly like my dog who passed away this year :( Tbh, I still miss her
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Didn't end up going to school today cuz I haven't been feeling well. It's not like I'm particularly sick I don't think but then again, idrk cuz yesterday, I was feeling so extremely weak and couldn't think though I tried to push myself through the school day without calling for my mom to pick me up. Luckily, I did but today it was worse bc I couldn't even bring myself to get ready for school this morning
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Hey, whatever is going on, if you're not feeling well, it could be because you're stressing yourself out a lot
Take all the time you need, nobody should be forcing you to do things faster than you feel comfortable doing it -
True and yeah, it could be cuz of stress since ngl, I do be feeling pretty burnt out but I'm resting now so hopefully, I'll be good by tomorrow
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Take breaks if necessary
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Don't worry, I will I promise and thank you for checking up on me again btw, you're very kind and it means a lot to me
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No problem
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Ended up having an "episode" at school today bc I was in panic when my blood sugar started dropping REALLY low.
I tried to push through in class (cuz we were working on a group project and I needed the grade) but literally couldn't. I felt like I was going to pass out right there so I asked to walk out, which I did, before asking for a snack in the front office along with a few juices. I sat with the school counselor until I felt better, but while sitting there, my old middle school teacher (aka my favorite teacher with a therapist personality who I'm close with) came out her classroom to go to the bathroom while someone took over her position. She saw me and came to see how I was feeling and idk, I just started crying and panicking but she was there to help me. Eventually, I started feeling better tho and one of the assistants of her classroom who I'm also close with came to help, I even chatted with the counselor, and sat in that spot for a whole period before heading back to class.
Anyway-- yeah, that happened. I think it's bc my insulin dosage is too high and bc I'm not eating enough. Idk why but suddenly, I've been having trouble with the concept of eating and doing so, it's just so sudden and I kinda feel embarrassed abt crying. Luckily, no other students saw but I'm still unsure of why I began crying. Ig I just felt like I wasn't going to get better in the moment and that maybe the situation would get worse with me heading to the hospital or smth -
Ngl I am so mad rn and have been frustrated these past days. Though I try to hold in my emotions, I truly feel like kicking a wall rn. Like,, imagine if you did so much for this one person and then they have the nerve to lie to you and treat you terribly in return, even behind your back. I could see their lies right in front of me, what they said wasn't true was true, but still, I tried to put too much faith in them, that what they were telling me was the truth and nothing but the truth even tho what's obviously going on is seen in front of me. And it's not even minor crap, it's something huge that they know can hurt you, but do they care? No, after everything I did, it always just ends in betrayal and I'm sick of it. It happens constantly and hurts most when you try to trust this person who you've known for the longest time, giving them multiple chances but they'll never change.
It just gets me upset thinking abt it and I'm at the point where I wanna cry cuz of how angry I am. I just wish that people wouldn't take advantage of me and treat me terribly after I've done so much for them, it hurts and makes me reconsider the idea of friendships/relationships even if I'm lonely -
Just had to get that out somehow, but idk what to think now
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Bruh, today, I felt like I was basically third wheeling with someone I made plans with specifically, not my sister. No hate to her but this is why I don't like her hanging around while I'm in the process of making a friend bc I'll always end up being the third wheel with her (my sister) becoming bffs with someone my age when she's an adult now with multiple friends. Me, I have none. She's also the type who likes to take control over situations as well as be selfish too, idk if that exactly plays a role in this but tbh, it's kinda sad when my family (specifically aunt and mom today) had to force the friendship to happen and for us (person I was supposed to hang with) to get closer without my sister dropping in. It came to a point where I was literally just done, this happens too often and when my aunt and mom were attempting to get us closer (but failing), I was just like "Don't force it" cuz I don't want to "befriend" someone who is forcing themselves to like me anyway
Overall, just upsetting cuz every time I attempt to make friends, it fails, especially whenever my sisters around but idk, maybe that's just cuz she's more likable. I hate constantly being lonely like this, I seriously want to make a friend so bad but certain events always make me think that maybe I just wasn't made to have friends -
I f---ING LOVE COCK
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