Venting Thread
- Locked by Carri04 on Oct 29, '23 9:13pmReason: Sorry you gotta deal with this.
Thread Topic: Venting Thread
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Tbh, I don't really care for Barbie's tho, dolls lowkey scare me 😅> I'm one of those kids who took Toy Story too seriously tho so that's probs why
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Same here
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It's just that constant feeling of feeling unappreciated and like you're only there just to comfort them but when you're sad, it's like "oh cool, I'm great"
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It makes me feel as if my feelings don't matter. Sure, Ik people don't have to attend to my needs but it's the fact that they truly just don't care and it sucks to be going through things alone. I help them, do extra things for them, even give gifts, and get unappreciated or it's thrown like whatever, it's just that constant feeling of "why bother" for me but then at the same time, I don't wanna be lonely so I do whatever needs to be done to keep a friend cuz I'm lowkey desperate
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I have made my goals for myself but Idk if I'm particularly achieving them all:
1. Exercise more (Wait no-- I'm actually doing pretty good on this one so yay)
2. Do better with my care involving my diabetes (Still need to check my sugar more but other than that, kinda do just okay or sometimes meh depending on my moods)
3. Be more social (....Trying.)
4. Going outside more (I'm doing pretty good with this actually too. It's not that I don't like going out, it's just that I don't feel motivated at times to do so even tho I want to. It sounds strange but Ik it's relatable for some)
5. EAT MORE FOOD (I haven't been eating as much as I should just cuz I don't feel motivated to again ig?? But as a diabetic, I kinda have to so I need to fix this overtime, but also, whenever eating, I sometimes feel like v0miting and yeh, not a good feeling)
Anywayz, I'm at least pleased with how much more and into exercising I am now. I feel like it's going to help better with my diabetes and overall health -
anatomy by kenzie is so relatable like omgg and it's a good song, one of my favorites since I love the relatable music but it's kinda tough cuz that song made me cry as well as brought up some rough events from the past... I was just having one of those moments.
When I was younger, I never really cried during the terrible moments of certain events, but I cry and panic abt them now, acting as if I'm in the same mental state and timeline, but I'm guessing since I never let anything out back then, it's all just coming back to me now and leaving me in panic cuz this isn't the first time this has happened, certain stuff just triggers it Ig -
School begins for me later this month so lately, I've been school shopping so so far, I got...
1. An average sized Invader Zim backpack. I used to use this mini MHA backpack for school but since there were always few things I couldn't fit in it, I decided to get smth larger in size. I do still use the MHA one for going out, holding my diabetic stuff, while at the mall, etc.
2. Still needa get new shoes but my mom has promised to take me out today. I already got few clothes that I need tho
3. Tbh, I already use school supplies on a day to day basis for things like art or journalism and such so I got most stuff already prepared to use during the year in that area -
This is a random thought but suddenly, I started thinking abt the poem I wrote in 1st grade and cringed. It was for an assignment, all kids had to make one, but now thinking abt it, I find it to be a mix of terrible and kinda creepy cuz of it's topic but yeah, tbh I was only trying to just make anything rhyme in it cuz I didn't know what I was doing...
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Nvm, got my shoes finally today which was nice. Strange thing is that I've seen those shoes (the ones I picked out) before but never really cared for them and it wasn't until today that I saw them and fell in love-- actually, idk bout fell in love but out of all the shoes, I found them to be one of the ones I liked the best
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Ended up making a friend over all this time. He's chill, been through a lot of heavy stuff, but still chill. We have a lot of similarities too, like how we are practically friendless and lonely-- but yeah, at least we can be lonely together
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Lowkey screaming, friend said he couldn't sleep cuz he was up all night creating scenarios in his head abt us and couldn't get me off his mind-- *COUGH*
Anyway, on another note, I ran on the treadmill for 30 minutes today. I made a goal to exercise more and since doing so, I've been doing good from exercising and working out from 30 min. to an hour each day -
That storm thing is coming my family's way. I haven't looked too much into it just bc I overthink a lot and scare myself with my own thoughts, but yeah, that's just been on my mind and has been freaking me out. I'm hoping the storm won't be as bad as I imagine it but idk, the power will likely be off on Sunday, we're preparing for that, and I feel bad for my cat too cuz she'll be scared like me, but won't even know what's goin' on
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Still trying to get my mind off the storm thing but on a better note, I've been getting more motivation to work on this story I've neglected for the longest time-- Actually, I pretty much have a few that I've neglected but I'll work on all them eventually. Rn, I just got motivation for one
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Also, I got school like, on Tuesday or so and even found a spot in an art class there so hopefully, that'll be fun though I'd like for the day to move on quickly
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Freaking out over the hurricane ngl but I'm hoping that it won't be as bad as I imagine it will be since I often overreact and overthink..
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