yo
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why is there such an emphasis on mental health and self-care in the 21st century? In earlier times, people just got up at 4am every day and worked out in the field all day and came home to their family and took care of the cooking and the cleaning and sewed their own clothes and they never seemed to complain about needing "me time"
so why are we all of a sudden placing such an emphasis on you being you and self actualization and all that
because clearly we're a much worse society than in the 17/18/1900s, so it's not exactly helping -
so is that it? do I just need to get over myself? am I just being a big wimp who needs to grow up?
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but then everyone around me is being all negative and only doing stuff if they want to, but then they beat me up for not living up to their expectations
but I mean they're sort of right. I definitely suck in a lot of ways and I hate almost everything about myself rn. I'm not suicidal but I'm definitely not my favorite person -
but then every time I freak out and have a breakdown, those same people who beat me up will rush to my side and assure me that I'm only human and I can't do everything and blah blah
so WHAT IS THE ANSWER
I don't know
I don't even know what the question is -
I don't even know what I want. Do I just want a break? But every time I give myself a break it just depresses me even more and I don't know what to do with myself. Do I just want to be better? I guess? But I rarely take opportunities to make myself better. Do I want more support? Maybe, but again, I never accept opportunities when they arise. And my friends are pretty much the best I'll ever get. So if I can't trust them, I'll never be able to trust anybody.
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I honestly don't know what I want. I hate that question anyway, because it's so pointless. Who cares what I want? Unless I can take actionable steps to get it, it's just useless wishing and I'm better off being a depressed grump like I am now.
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I don't know. I still have things to do, so I don't exactly have all day to muse about my issues.
It just seems like there'd be a magic switch that would just make me a better person. When I was younger it seemed like all I needed was a little pep talk and maybe some epic music and I was good to go. And now that stuff does virtually nothing. So idk. -
I feel like there's an analogy for this... like a real-world situation where something goes for a bit and then stops because it's got the wrong power source
gah what is it -
Well I guess it's like that thing I have that has a "power adapter" mode and a "battery" mode. So if you're in power adapter mode but you're not plugged in, it ain't gonna work. And if you're in battery mode and the battery's dead, it ain't gonna work either.
am I getting somewhere with this or is this just dumb -
so do I need another power source? or a different one?
I know what my power source was before, and it was pretty powerful. But it died out and I can't ever use it again. It's gone. And that's a bummer because I was virtually unstoppable back in the day.
So I guess I need to find a new power source....
gosh it feels like I'm just coming up with new resolutions every day and I never follow through with them
I've read so many blogs and listened to so many motivational speakers and created so many systems and nothing works for very long and I hate it -
well maybe I can think about it while I'm baking
gotta go do that now -
ola
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hey!
sorry i'm not a very exciting person lol -
well I kinda thought about my life some more and I still don't know
I think it's really important to keep thinking though, and then maybe someday I'll find my anti-trigger
that is not a real term but hey it works ig
I've been listening to music a lot more, and that's really helped. There's some good good stuff out there and I wish it was the popular stuff and not all the completely pointless Ed Sheeran romance stuff that I can't relate to at all
no offense to Ed Sheeran, I like some of his music but I'm starting to suspect that I might be aroace because I'm almost repulsed by romantic/sexual stuff, so yeah I don't really like romance music or any romance at all
maybe I'll grow out of it though, I'm still sort of young-ish and I keep changing -
except I kinda have a crush on [unnamed person] so idk if that's gonna go anywhere
I don't think he likes me though so I'm probably safe
I mean he likes me but he likes almost everyone, and the long distance factor has driven us apart pretty well
also I'm nowhere near ready for an actual relationship so I need to just move on, and if it's meant to be he'll stick around for me
which I doubt 😂 I mean I'm not all that special and there's much better people out there for him
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