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If I could still afford a therapist I bet she would say it’s because of my abandonment issues b---- you’re not a teenager anymore why are you still traumatized about that why
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I want to know if it’s normal for people to go around their days waking up and feeling absolutely nothing at all. Occasionally I feel sadness or anger or frustration or worrisome but to feel happy? I’m not trying to sound fake deep or edgy but I genuinely think the last time I felt any type of happiness was when I was 18 and I was partying nonstop and that was only because I fed off other people’s happiness and was drinking a f--- load of stuff.
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I will get my s--- together and graduate and get a job in my field and or an internship and maybe that way it will be the start to personal growth
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SIKE f--- that my dad really called me at three in the morning asking me if I can wire him $600 to complete his rent dude I can’t even scrape together my rent where the hell am I going to get together $600 for your rent
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He really tried manipulating me with the “oh it’s for Father’s Day” you don’t deserve a Father’s Day gift when your own f---ing child is being raised by the one you threw out like garbage while they were still underage
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I deserve the Father’s Day gift.
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I’m just kidding I don’t deserve the Father’s Day gift. Every day an ex alcoholic chooses to be sober you don’t just wake up saying “I’ll stop drinking forever” and suddenly stop. My reason is because I don’t want to be the person I was back then. Will I feel like a normal person with emotions and happiness? Yes but only temporarily. I’ve been invited to about 4 parties so far and I haven’t gone because I know I will go back to that.
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The urge is still there to take a drink of tequila with salt and lemon and heat the sound of the ice cubes shake inside the glass. I just can’t though my liver isn’t doing well and that’s because I did way too much way too fast and then f---ed up and now I’m Stuck with the illness I have lmao.
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Oh f--- right ghost eye girl I went out with her today to get coffee.
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She asked about myself and who I was and what I did and how old I was and my sign then she told me about herself
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She said that her special interest was monster high dolls the rest of the conversation was her going on about the dolls. I think I know more about that franchise than I know about my major now lol. She pulled out a whole scrapbook journal thing that was a diagram of all the characters. I did see them around growing up but I never really paid attention to them it’s actually really interesting.
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After that she said thanks for the date and I was like oh??? Because I Didn’t even know it was one she did say she was going to call me if she wanted a second one
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I was like oh??? I was shocked she was so straight forward and didn’t even ask about my opinion but I don’t mind she’s not who I thought she was.
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I did get a text back about 30 minutes ago next Wednesday I’m going to watch the monster high movies with her at her house and I was like ah okay
I’m concerned about her? Like she just met me and if you guys remember -
She’s not a normal 20 year old she is a golden spoon baby. She should not be so trusting people are not sugar and spice people have bad intentions. What if I went over and then robbed her? She just met me. She is kind of odd.
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