~ Rhi's Official Thread ~
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Thread Topic: ~ Rhi's Official Thread ~
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And I doubt it will ever be any different
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Taken by... taken by the sky...
Feeling lonely and lost in thought and distracted from this ephemeral world where I still have to write a lot more papers of my paper and study for finals. But Im just not interested...
I wanna meet M...
I wanna meet A...
And the other A too I guess
But mostly A.J.... I wonder what he would think of all this. -
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I stalked my crushs social media... meh.
In my defense, thread stalker, u got to admit, I got some good investigation skillz.
Course I owe it to my friends
I never would have found out the names if it were not for them
If what I am thinking is actually is, then I probably will not be coming on here as often anymore. I dont feel like it need to write about this stuff anymore. -
Funny how the day I said when my life stops being as confusing, I would come on here less, is the day I found out a name. Which somehow clarified so much in my mind.
And yet I am still scared. And I dont feel like approaching him. Last time I was courageous with a boy it just ended up being too hard. So I am not gonna bother this time... -
When I first saw the name my friend wrote down (and I did NOT ask them to go look at his order, they did it for me and I was dying of nervousness), I was literally so sad for a while. Cuz I was thinking it had to do with a last name. But then later I just couldnt help but feel so happy and then ended up finding out info. Soooo all in all, my life is still crazy crazy crazy.
But the good part is, I do not feel like coming on here as often, and I have only one more week left of school until I get to go home and spend much needed time with Rhiannah this summer. -
Also, Ive been clean for over a month now when it comes to c
And for two weeks and a day when it comes to h.
I hope I can keep that up.
Maybe I understand new fears better now. I fear it more because I know that it makes me into a slave. And my fear for that slavery is far greater than my temptation.
After all, why would I let a wolf sink his teeth in?
I wont. -
Matthew 7:15-20
Matthew 10:16
Matthew 10:26,27
Matthew 22:37-40 -
And possibly, Revelation 11
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Now I am even more certain. My dad had dreams regarding these things and the 144,000 and mental illness... he still does not understand it all but it talking about it with him is like confirmation to what I suspected.
Hmm... so I guess it definitely is not all for nothing. I am so relieved. Not confused anymore. -
Even Adventists are deceived about suicide and self harm and depression. It disgusts me. Absolutely enrages me. Seeing them blame the person who committed suicide. Blaming the depression. Saying that if you knew Jesus you would never consider that. Suicide, depression, self harm, mental illness of any kind, is not the fault of the person who has it, is considering it, or did it.
Things like these happen because of evil people who do not love one another the way Jesus told us to.
In the end, these people will be giants. And they will understand that it is not their fault.
Matthew 25 -
Anders J has an awesome taste in music may I just say. I stalked his social media too and saw he liked MIQEDEM. I checked them out. That was the only band he liked but I love it.
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The next boy I date I am going to give butterfly kisses. My sister Elissya is the one who showed me them when I was little and theyre adorably cute ☺
If I ever have a baby Ill give them butterfly kisses too -
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I really want to tell him everything but I cannot bring myself to do it.
If he knew all of this he would understand why he he had this. But I just cant tell him. Maybe one day? Like when I am much older? Or maybe nobody (except the people in my music) will know until its time.
Either way. Im relieved. -
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