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The day hasn't been too bad, I suppose. I have been present for most of the day.
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I am tired.
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Today feels like it's taking forever, man.
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I'm feeling pretty conflicted. I feel blurry.
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Not really sure what to do about it, but okay, I guess.
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Semi conscious. Why do I feel this way?
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I think I haven't been interacting because I'm scared. I don't want to be judged.
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Maybe no one would care and I'm just overthinking this. Maybe it doesn't matter and I won't be ostracized like the worst case scenario I'm thinking.
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I'm scared to open up because this is all new to me as well. I haven't been diagnosed with anything because this is the first time I've truly noticed. Even my friend with DID noticed something was off. We're not sure what type of dissociative disorder it is, but there's clearly something happening here.
I have amnesia when I dissociate
I have different personalities that automatically present themselves during different situations
I feel like I'm not alone in my body
I feel like my body isn't mine
I feel like an entirely different person
I feel like there's more than one person controlling my thoughts and actions
This happens at some point every day
At first, it started with the amnesia from dissociating. Then it happened more frequently. Then the onset of acting differently during certain situations, like when I get stressed at work, I often become chipper, which isn't the expected reaction. I thought it was mania, but it goes away after work and it leaves me feeling drained and still dissociated. And I never really remember what occures when I'm in that position. People just tell me I was really happy, and sometimes my mind is present enough to remember it. Sometimes I want to stop, but it feels automatic. -
Even right now, I feel like I'm not entirely present. Like I'm sharing my mind and body with someone else. I can remember what is happening, but it feels like a dream.
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I feel stressed and like there's an internal struggle over something unspoken. My friend is the only one who knows about this because I'm too afraid to tell anyone else. And I've tried to tell my therapists, but they're chalking it up as just being stressed from the holidays. They keep telling me to use my coping mechanisms until it goes away, but those don't even help this situation.
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So I'm just hiding because I'm scared. Even here, I'm scared.
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I don't even understand everything that's happening. My friend says this develops at 6, but if that's the case, why didn't this happen sooner?
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I haven't really come out my room for days. I don't want to talk about it to anyone. How do you even bring it up?
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Is this even something I have to share with anyone?
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