Shrouded despair and forgotten ambitions
- Locked by Br0wnieBunny on Nov 23, '24 12:03amReason: thread owner request
Thread Topic: Shrouded despair and forgotten ambitions
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you okay?
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I’m all good, thanks
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it kinda hurts that that one friend hasn't made any effort to connect. like they've left schools, texted us the weekend before school started to tell us, then just didn't text back. like an explanation would be nice but whatever
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i didn't think our friendship was disposable but ok
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aaaand i was worried for nothing about engineering
i haven't gotten my grade yet but my teacher didn't check our machines to see if they worked (which i spent days in my holidays testing and panicking about) sp i was worrying about if the app would play up for nothing
hopefully that means I get a good grade bc the teacher doesn't really care about/notice me so he probably hopefully thinks im an okay student lol -
this term is gonna be ok ig
i get to miss a buncha days for music tho which i'm really happy about
and i think there's a theatre workshop at some point which ill probably go to
and swimming hopefully won't be that bad im just counting on the fact i get put in a group with my friends
science probably won't be bad i'll just be hyperfixated on space for a bit lol
the fact my health teacher assigned THREE HOURS of homework on the first day tho- -
Anyway
I don’t think I’m gonna worry about getting a job until next year. I don’t urgently need money (and I already have a bit bc extended family who never know what to get me for Christmas) and there aren’t many jobs available for teens who aren’t in grade 11-12 -
Anyway #2
I don’t wanna hang out with a transphobic girl with my deadname but I feel bad bc I don’t wanna tell my friend-
It’s not the fact she has my deadname it’s that she doesn’t think any genders apart from male, female and enby are valid and the fact a kid with my deadname thinks that is triggering
Especially bc I’m questioning my gender and I’m deffo not a boy or a girl -
It’s just generally uncomfortable as well
I’ve never met this kid irl before. And I’ve met up with online friends before, but only after talking to them a lot, calling them, etc etc. I’ve only known this kid for a few months and she has a mean sense of humour which is also somewhat triggering -
I don't wanna be the mean one in the friend group tho. i dont wanna be like 'i don't want her to come so she wont". im not one to gatekeep friends because i used to have a "friend" who got mad when i hung out with anybody else, so trauma lmao. my friends can be friends with whoever they like, but that doesn't mean i have to be friends when their friends. especially if it makes me uncomfortable.
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I suck
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you don't suck-
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Just tell them that you don't particularly like that friend maybe? Idk my friend group has all sorts of different people in it, so there's always a handful of people someone doesn't want to hang out with outside of at school and stuff. As long as you're not like "I absolutely hate this person and don't want to talk to her" then it shouldn't be a big deal, at least in my opinion lol
You definitely don't suck. -
fair enough. idk I might try that, but i dont wanna appear rude or anything. thanks lol
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i dont want to be selfish either. but i dont think it'll be enjoyable for me if she comes. i don't want to not go either, but if it saves me appearing like a jerk i might just not
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