Shrouded despair and forgotten ambitions
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Thread Topic: Shrouded despair and forgotten ambitions
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My name is Alexi and my pronouns are they/them. I don't mind if people post here, just keep on topic and don't flood.
See me in my official thread if you wish to talk to me.
Thanks! đź–¤ -
Not really feeling my best, I guess.
I like my solitude, let's say. I've grown so used to being alone that I like it more than being with other people. I've started to hate going out when I don't want to, and during these holidays I've only been out the house a few times. My daydreams and my writings and my drawings keep me company instead of real people. I imagine friends in my mind instead of going out and making real friends.
But some people are cruel. Some people are horrible. I hate opening up but when I do the person either pushes me away or becomes mean or starts being somebody I didn't think they were. I'll start pushing them away whether they do these things or not. I don't like hating going out because I get so worked up.
Yeah, I'm not really feeling my best. -
School starts in less than 60 hours. I'm partially looking forward to it, I guess. Nearly the end of the school year, which means school camp and a few fun field trips.
There's this teacher who notices that I spend my lunches inside and on my laptop. Once she said that she thinks it's unhealthy I don't play with others, which now I guess is true. I don't like it when people come to sit with some uninvited though, they see me alone and they think I need someone to be with.
I don't.
But I can't tell them that because they'll think I'm being rude and I don't want to appear as cold or mean.
Socialising is tiring. Why can't we go back to home learning like we did during COVID? -
Also, my mother may be a Karen.
So that's fun. -
Stop yelling at me... please...
I'm sorry for what I've done... Forgive me for whatever sins I've made....
Just please stop shouting....
I love you, just please stop hating me.... -
I hate it when you hate me...
I don't know what I did wrong...
Just please stop shouting...
I know you're tired of my s---....
But at least tell me what I did wrong....
I feel so terrible... -
Please don't be disappointed...
I'm sorry for everything...
I can't get anything right...
I should know better... -
Alexi, you're not allowed to cry. Pull your goddamn self together
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I hate myself...
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I understand if everybody hates me...
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Everybody hates me...
So they should... -
I hate myself....
They all do.... -
I don't deserve good things
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Yes you do.
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You don't know how much I appreciate that
Thank you 🙏🖤
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