Safe Place
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Thread Topic: Safe Place
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ill need to implement color theory into the designs
ive already come to a conclusion the galaxy they’ll be abiding in is a commix of purple , black , n some blue bc the colors represent “mystery” in color theory lolol -
now i jus need 2 start making silhouettes w interesting shapes b4 tending 2 design bc i need a memorable character omg 😭 need it 2 be simple for animation tho cuz shonks my wrist will be the definition of pain if i make the design too overbearing
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nanana un cananananana
im so tired 💀 like three or sum hours of sleep = sleep deprived = goofy ahh = omg drug effects -
flashbacks 2 when i stayed up for five days STRAIGHT 😟 i did not fan well lolol , def took a toll on my sleep schedule
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me when the n the then the when the who the FU#*#1**#$&CK JUS SAID me when the n the then the when the who the F
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im having a commix of a stroke , an aneurysm , a heart attack , n a seizure . please stand by
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fonking left spring jus glided out of my braces ,,,,,
i don’t wan another appointment but now i HAVE TO bc i can’t eat until i get it fixed ☹ -
testing pfp testing testing *slams mic*
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pfp testing is testing pfp *mic drop*
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oh i lost my og pfp after i yeeted it into the ecosystem
well shonks ☹ ill roll the wheel of wheels of wheels 2 decide the terrifying possibilities of the pfp paths ,,, -
ofo i should probs tell her LLOL
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i told her what i did a while ago , idk how long ago exactly but ik it was when we lived in the other house so probs like two or three years or sum ago , that sounds abt right
so basically , sum context beforehand , when i got caught cutting , they sent me to the er n gave me this rlly strong medication to go to sleep
like much stronger than melatonin n anything ive ever taken b4 to help w my insomnia bc it was down BAD . the first time i took it i was asleep within , i kid you not , like less than three minutes
originally i wasn't even tired but like 30 secs after i took it i was literally so exhausted n jus wanted sleep
they also assigned me antidepressants
so anyway one day after getting used 2 taking them , i took like 10 or sum of those sleeping medications (idk the exact amount, ik it was around that bc it was a lot. i was swallowing until i couldn't)(they were cut in half bc my parents thought they were too strong , so they cut em in half, honestly that probs saved me bc i would probs be dead if they hadn't cut those in half) n idk how many antidepressants i took too but i took them until my throat was burning n i couldn't swallow anymore
i dont rlly remember feeling any different, jus kinda in a daze, like i was kinda frozen for a few mins . i expected myself to die or like pass out or sum shiz bc i was literally so sad at the moment i jus wanted smth to get away , be it sleep or death
i THINK i remember posting on gtq a few times after that , kinda like a "i took these , hoping ill go to sleep" or sum , idk , but i do remember me jus getting rlly exhausted , n at the time capitalization was a huge thing 4 me lmao like it was a pet peeve but i was jus exhausted so it jus felt like a sloppy jamming fingers against keyboard 2 get it done w
i actually dont remember anything after that , idk if i went unconscious or like stayed up but i completely forgot what happened
i do remember when i woke up tho , i couldn't remember anything from the night before but my head hurt so bad , like that was probs the worst headache ive had lmao , but i did feel happy , but it didnt feel happy happy i cant explain it but its like a "happy but im not happy" happy
anywho , at the time my goal was 2 die , but when i woke up i was jus like "meh i didnt die so probs wasn't dangerous" n now like years later im jus being told im only alive bc of sum miracle or smth 💀 like my mum DID NOT go easy abt it , she was telling me i literally would have died if it wasn't for sum sort of shorthanded miracle . i dont blame her tho , idk what i was thinking at the time
i mean i DO , but like i feel like at the time , a future - 2 - past consoling would have been the best option if that was even a thingamajig lolol
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