Welcome To My Mind: Where All Hell Brakes Loose
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Thread Topic: Welcome To My Mind: Where All Hell Brakes Loose
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Ok
Time to tell my venting thread how much I hate myself
And how much of an idiot I am
And how I totally mess everything up :> -
Well
I’m an idiot
I honestly shouldn’t have said anything -
I’m usually so good at keeping quiet about this stuff
Idk why
I even knew that he just thought of me as a friend but I didn’t keep my dumb mouth shut anyways -
Now he says he’s just ultimately confused 😣
He said it came out of nowhere
I guess it did
But
It didn’t in my head
I just let slip out of nowhere -
I made a fill out of myself
And we’re probably never gonna speak for a long time because it’ll just be awkward -
*a fool out of myself
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I wonder if I'm being real
Do I speak my truth or do I filter how I feel?
I wonder, wouldn't it be nice
To live inside a world that isn't black and white?
I wonder what it's like to be my friends
Hope that they don't think I'll forget about them
I wonder
I wonder
Right before I close my eyes
The only thing that's on my mind
Been dreamin' that you feel it too
I wonder what it's like to be loved by you
Yeah
I wonder what it's like
I wonder what it's like to be loved by
I wonder why I'm so afraid
Of saying something wrong, I never said I was a saint
I wonder, when I cry into my hands
I'm conditioned to feel like it makes me less of a man
And I wonder if someday you'll be by my side
And tell me that the world will end up alright
I wonder
I wonder
Right before I close my eyes
The only thing that's on my mind
Been dreamin' that you feel it too
I wonder what it's like to be loved by you
Yeah
I wonder what it's like
I wonder what it's like to be loved by you
Just imagine that but with the crossed-out text
I feel like even more of an idiot for saying this but I never actually learned how to use that here -
I studied his words
Like
When he talked to himself in his thread last night
If I'm correct
He doesn't really see it as anything but weird and out of the blue
I don't exactly blame him
But...
I don't think he understands
He seems to treat this as just a weird bug that randomly showed up on his windshield. But I don't think he really realizes that even though it's just a sudden weird thing to him, it's much more of a bigger problem to the bug... -
You treat it as something small
You obviously have no knowledge of the the side of the situation(my perspective) -
So please don't treat it like that, even if it seems weird and sudden...
Because when people do that it tends to hurt the people who actually worked up enough nerve to even just hint anything at all -
I'm sorry I bothered you by this whole situation Chai, I'll leave you alone
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Everything seems perfectly fine and ok with him
I guess I'm happy because of that
But there's still the matter of me not being totally ok ^^' -
I'mABotherI'mABotherI'mABotherI'mABotherI'mABotherI'mABotherI'mABother
Just stop talking about how you feel inside and you won't be a bother to anyone -
Just don't be yourself if what you are is a bother to the people you care about
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:’) life sucks, doesn’t it?
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