Welcome To My Mind: Where All Hell Brakes Loose
- Locked by mcqueen on May 3, '21 6:44amReason: Owners request.
Thread Topic: Welcome To My Mind: Where All Hell Brakes Loose
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I wasn't trying to sound toxic...
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I was trying to not increase my breakdown
Yes, I actually have them
I don't want to have them
But that's not my choice
I get them bc I go through depression, ok?
I don't feel loved
I feel useless
I'm so weak
That when small things happen
It's hard for me to stay ok
Like when I get a little frustrated
Or when I mess something up
But it's worse when people yell
I yell back
But once I've yelled for a bit, what's left is weakness
And I end up breaking down. -
You never understood me
And I don’t think you ever will
You tell me that you love me
But you can’t even tell
That I’m breaking inside
That I’m slowly degrading
I always seem perfect
But really I’m faking
I try to be happy
But I always fail
My progress on it
Seems slower than a snail
It’s been getting worse
And you don’t notice at all
It’s been getting to my head
It’s been there since last fall
It’s been haunting me daily
And stalking my nights
Taking over my fears
My dreads
My frights
I feel so small
Insignificant; that’s all
I am
I’m nothing more
I can’t
Take this force
That weighs down on my shoulders
That lingers over my head
That will never leave me alone
You are loved
Don’t forget
That they love you
Don’t sweat
You are cared for
You are cherished
You are comforted
Don’t perish
Never forget
That you are loved
You are loved...
No
Stop lying to me
I’m alone
I won’t forget that
I’m useless and I know
I’m ignored
And I’ve lived with it
I’ve tried to be liked, but I don’t know... -
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I wrote this last night -
f---
f--- you
f--- everything
Why do I always have to be the nice person?
I don't feel like I want to be sometimes
Because I don't even feel like it's worth it anymore
All they do is call you toxic
All they do is ignore you
So why even try? -
I don't even know if I should make another official thread
People are just gonna come into it and fight again
And I'll fight back
And then I'll just strip myself down to weakness again
Oh, yeah, I forgot to mention that I'm ignorant, according to someone whose name I won't mention bc they asked me not to
I can't believe that I actually agreed to that. They just called me ignorant to my face and said that I was talking s--- about other people when I wasn't
I consider that to be s---ty but I'm not gonna go any further about it bc I'm nice
Or at least I try to be -
...I wasn't talking s--- about Cats and others that called Angel out. I was just arguing against them because I was standing up for the fact that yes, my friend made a mistake. But she was guilty and sorry, and she was willing to try to make it up to him. And they can't see that. They just keep talking s--- about her
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I mean do y'all think that I'm just gonna stand by and be ok with that?
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It wasn't even their problem
They all just came up and started calling her out
When it wasn't their business to do so whatsoever
And I just fricken stood up for my friend
AND YOU CALL ME IGNORANT!? -
You're doing a really bad job of not referring to me. If you want me to leave you alone, you need to leave me alone.
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Sorry, I thought you meant you didn’t want me to refer to you by name
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No. You can't lock someone out of a thread so you can talk about them without consequence. That's cowardly and unfair.
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Ok, I’m sorry
I’m just trying to vent
This is a VENTING thread
I’m having a hard time
So I’m sorry if I’m being rude
I’m not trying to be -
I'm not worried about you being rude. I'm not mad at you, no matter how you feel about me. I know you think you're doing the right thing. Just refrain from talking about me, since you very adamantly don't want me in your thread. Have a great day.
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Yeah
Whatever
I won't talk about you
Just go please...
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