My Venting Thread
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Thread Topic: My Venting Thread
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This time I had a full-on breakdown. My brother got frustrated at how my dad and I offered him some trifle. He was like, “it’s too close to dinner. If you’re gonna eat trifle than you obviously don’t care about dinner.” I got slightly frustrated at him because he was putting words in my mouth. I told him this, but he refused to listen. He kept insisting that’s he’s gonna lose it if I keep getting offended at the little things he says. I tried to keep telling him that I wasn’t offended at what he said, but he wouldn’t listen. So before I got too frustrated with him, I began to walk to my room. That made him start screaming at me because I always do that. But I only do it so I don’t end up yelling at him because that just makes him more angry. So when he started screaming at me, I couldn’t take it. I ran to my room, shut the door, locked it, and just broke down in tears. Even when it’s not my fault, people still don’t like me
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I'm here for you Cinna
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Ty Bry, that means a lot
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Anytime for a friend
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And maybe I should've but I never told you, "I'm sorry"
Know that I tried but my words always got in the way
Could you hold me without any talking?
We could try to go back where we started
I don't even have to stay
I don't even have to stay, but
If I woke up with you in the morning
I'd forget all the ways that we're broken
I don't care if you've changed
I don't even have to stay, huh
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Do you remember happy together?
I do, don't you?
Then all of a sudden, you're sick to your stomach
Is that still true?
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I don't wanna go, think I'll make it worse
Everything I know brings me back to us
I don't wanna go, we've been here before
Everywhere I go leads me back to you
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Started as a simple lie, thinking love had chose us
We would talk into the night, and nobody noticed
And I held on to every word, couldn't let you go and called it hope
Now I'm so low, I can't ignore, we only ever made it worse
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Scared to turn and look behind, think I'd see you hurting
And even when I close my eyes, I feel like the burden
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I close both locks below the window
I close both blinds and turn away
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye's the only way, oh
And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in gray
And the sun will set for you
In cards and flowers on your window
Your friends all plead for you to stay
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye's the only way, oh
And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in gray
And the sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in gray
And the sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in gray
And the sun will set for you -
The first and last ones are the ones that hit me the hardest. The last one just reminds me of the situation even more
The first one... I can’t help imagine him saying it to me... and I can’t stop listening to it either -
Everyone tells me to just leave it behind me and move on because he’s not worth my time
What they say makes sense but-
Obviously they don’t understand how difficult it is
Because THEY KEEP SAYING IT TO ME
BUT IT’S SO HARD
BECAUSE I LET MYSELF GET TO DAMN ATTACHED
IT’S TOO HARD TO LET GO
IT’S TOO HARD TO FORGET
TO MOVE ON
And everyone tells me to do it...
They obviously don’t understand -
I’ve been hurt before
Back around September
So around 6 months ago
I finally got over it a little while ago
My heart had finally healed
But then- -
Moving on isn't easy, Cinnabon. And, who kmows; maybe he's just busy but still cares about you. <3
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Yeah...
But some certain things seem like they just can’t be coincidental. Like we were just talking a bit but when I mentioned that post where I told him I loved him, he just disappeared -
Maybe he just wasn't ready for a relationship, or he just didn't know how to say he loved you back
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Good point ig
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Ok, I feel better
Like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders
And yes, there are still things that are wrong with my life, and they still hurt me
But my heart can’t focus on those things anymore
It’s too happy
My hope wasn’t false :) -
Yeah idk if something happy like that belongs in my venting thread but whatever! ^^
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Idk, I sort of feel like dancing around the house but then everyone will be like 0.o
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