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I feel like I’m the ultimate toxic manipulator gaslight boyfriend and that’s one of the top 5 reasons why I choose to not get in a relationship right now
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It’s weird because I’m self aware and have been for the entirety of my gotoquiz history of my tendencies but I’ve made about 20% change only in almost a decade of being on here?
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Lmao I’m too broke to have a relationship. I only wake up to work and work to be able to wake up to a roof over my head. There is no Time for anything or extra cash to burn and the cash that there is to burn is about 3 months worth for Friday the 13 $20 tattoos and piercings
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Going back to milfs friends calling their moms milfs
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D star do you guys remember him? I briefly mentioned him in here a few month back when I had the argument with the guy that fetishized white girls and called me and Dylan gross for dating POC even though he is a POC
Speaking of I’m still in that chat and am locked in. There is no leaving that chat. Every one is stuck there. Even in my darkest depression days I had to post on there. Why? Because it started out as a vent chat. We would go in there to pop in whenever something was wrong and we just needed to talk no one was forced to reply it was just a thumbs up as a signal of approval -
Fast forward to this stupid ass mother f---er who says “I took a screenshot of all your messages if any of you guys leave this chat I’m leaking them”
What’s so dark inside there that you don’t want anyone to see? I can’t say names but one guy confessed to helping his mate cheat on his papers because he needed money and he was stressed because he couldn’t make ends meet which is why he did it in the first place
The other that even though they have a large game play following and donors when they stream that they genuinely don’t like it because they’re afraid of their fan interaction to be low dude has like 100k followers on tiktok too he’s good
The main guy I don’t like I don’t give a s--- f--- him i don’t like him What he said is -
Going back on the tiktok guy it want exactly that honestly it was confusing? I don’t remember if he said he was afraid of the fan interactions? Or if the fans would have low reactions? One of those two
Right dude I don’t like he confessed that he always keeps a side chick and that the girl is aware she is one but doesn’t care but that he would never make her his main because she’s not “wifey material “ and that for all of the relationships he has been in for the last 4 years, this girl has been the side piece. He says he can’t leave her because she a baddie? Motherf---er if you really cared about her you would not have her as a side girl or cheat on the girls you date.
And now for me. My stupid ass confessed that I tried to kill myself last April. I told them that I had done a lot of drugs and that I was a recovering alcoholic. I told them it was because it made me feel something for that moment. I told them how I used to live and breathe parties all the time at my old campus. Now -
Well that’s not so bad jAe wHy cAnT yOu lEaVe
Because who the f--- would want to hire a 21 year old ex alcoholic ex homeless person? In my future field? No. I am clean now and I am a well composed person for the sake of being a good older sibling role model but??? -
It’s not a good look. I regret partying and drinking and smoking cigarettes and harming my body with substances when I was a teenager all the way up to my early 20th birthday but mentally I wasn’t doing so good? I never harmed anybody other than myself. But people don’t understand that and just hear oh ex addict
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And they treat you different add ex homeless on top of that and the good impression I leave now is absolutely destroyed with that past. Because people do judge and it’s s--- but it’s the truth because I’ve seen it happen first hand to me when I mentioned the homeless part to some because it came up. Imagine if they new about the rest. Do I regret my past? Yes because those years even though they were literally less than 2 years ago I can’t remember they’re all blur . I take accountability though I’m not blaming anybody I chose to cope like that. I just I can’t have people just knowing that about me because they’ll think I’m like some movie villain that’s going to snatch their purse for money for my addiction or some s---
Which by the way is so cliche In media -
Like I worked and did school and partied by eliminating slew from my schedule. But I had some spare money lmao I never stole anything
But people won’t care. They’ll think I’m a bad person bad influence. Baby girl all you have to worry about now is me not offing myself lmao but then again not really because I have to help my step mom raise my brother because the current economy would make it a living hell for a single mom like her with one job to do it herself
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Leaking that would destroy my opportunities with future people that don’t know me. So I’m stuck there. It’s fine though we just randomly send check ups now. Except for the one I told you that has 100k fans. He kind of complains about his followers being inconsistent and leaving and gaining in stats
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My sleep schedule is so f---ed and it’s the medication I’m taking. That’s one of the side effects but if I don’t take them a crippling pain in my abdomen will fold me over and make me curl up in a ball to wish to die in
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I’m sleepy now s--- every time I mention sleep in this forum on a post suddenly my brain does want to go to bed even though I only have about 2 hours left before I start me day
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If I would have known sooner I would have said sleepy 20 minutes into this
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