New Beginnings on an Open Page
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Thread Topic: New Beginnings on an Open Page
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I think the HTTYD books are fine though. They give me a reason to exercise and they aren't causing major daydreaming problems, so I don't see a reason to discontinue that.
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The intermittent exercise throughout the day is what's been killing me. If I lived alone and had total freedom over what I ate, losing weight would be a breeze. Being in a family that is constantly eating, a lot--that makes it hard. It's not like I even enjoy the food that much, it's just the family culture and not having the backbone to say no that many times. I've tried to throw away some food but that only works for a few meals.
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I don't want to give up on my weight loss plan though. Not now. Not after all I've been through to get to this point. Maybe I won't get down to my goal of 120 pounds by October, but I can at least try.
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I think that I should do whatever possible to push myself, yet not so hard that I lose all the joy in it. If working out and burning those extra calories becomes a burden and starts producing early depression symptoms, it's not worth it.
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Also, piano. If I'm getting a new teacher who is considerably more expensive, I need to seriously step it up. Now. No more of this messing around. I need to get real and get serious and start working my ass off. Why am I taking piano lessons in the first place? Why do I want to do this? I need to figure that out posthaste.
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And that brings us to tumblr...
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I have mixed feelings about this, really. For one, I can legitimately say that the site has helped me. I've been able to express myself much more openly than I ever have before, and it's boosting my self-confidence. 35 followers may not seem like much, but it's a lot to me. I can share my opinions and theories and headcanons, and people like them. I've never experienced that before, and I like it. A lot.
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On the other hand...it's seriously draining my productivity level. I'm constantly checking it and posting new things and reblogging and looking up hashtags every spare moment I get, and it's not good. Both piano and school are significantly suffering as a result.
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So...
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I don't think the answer is to cut off tumblr completely. I have enough experience with myself to know that won't work. I think it just needs to be limited to certain contexts.
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Definitely I need to just not even go near the phone during piano. No matter what. I should commit to that this week and see how it goes...
maybe even use the Dragonite Vow™ if I'm serious...😏 -
Also doing school. Why tf not? I have three weeks left. I can do this. It's not that hard.
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I should review my journal and revisit the things I committed to two weeks ago. I've forgotten and sort of fallen away...
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Really I think that just about solves it.
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Downside of all this is that it's 3 am and I still have like 2 or 3 hours left of How to Steal a Dragon's Sword...
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