My Thread. 99.9% unofficial.
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Thread Topic: My Thread. 99.9% unofficial.
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Then don't be so down in the dumps.
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Well, like, it's something else ^~^ But thanks :3
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Np. :)
I'm good. Was charging my phone, which was why I never responded afterwards. -
Oh okay ^~^ At least it's charged now :3 Have you been doing anything exciting over the summer? I know school is going to start soon for me.
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Mhm. :D
Nope. Ugh, I have school by August 27. -_- -
I start on the 19th since I'm freshmeat and have to go in early ;-; You're in college, right?
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Now turn away, because I'm awful just to see, because all my hairs abandoned all my body, my agony, know that I will never marry, baby I'm just soggy from the chemo, but I'm counting down the days to go. It just ain't living.
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Song lyrics. (You wwant to be alone now, correct?)
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(actually, yeah, I'd like that for a moment)
So long to all my friends
Everyone of them met tragic ends
With every passing day
Id be lying if I didnt say
That I miss them all tonight
And if they only knew what I would say
If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take the light behind your eyes
One day Ill lose this fight
As we fade in the dark
Just remember you will always burn as bright
Be strong and hold my hand
Timeit comes for us, youll understand
Well say goodbye today
And I'm sorry how it ends this way
If you promise not to cry
Then Ill tell you just what I would say
If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take the light behind your eyes
Ill fail and lose this fight
Never fade in the dark
Just remember you will always burn as bright
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your
Sometimes we must grow stronger and
You can be stronger when I'm gone
When Im here, no longer
You must be stronger and
If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take the light behind your eyes
I failed and lost this fight
Never fade in the dark
Just remember you will always burn as bright
The light behind your eyes -
(Gotcha. Goodbye)
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I don't know why it's so hard for me to wrap my mind around it, but it is. I didn't think she'd remember, hell, I didn't even remember until she brought it up. Back last year when I had a panic attack because they wouldn't stop touching me (some people need to learn when people don't f---ing want to be hugged by the opposite sex) she went to the counselors office with me. I honestly didn't care, she knew about my problems, and I knew about hers, and the week had been rough without my friends being too clingy. We had gotten to the point where the counselor asked if I had eaten breakfast. I should've said yes, but I was in a truthful mood for some reason, and said no. It was true. I didn't eat. I had been skipping breakfast for a while, but couldn't get away with lunch and dinner, so it wasn't like it was that big of a deal anyway. But she had heard, and she had remembered. She had remembered for months. MONTHS. over half a year, she remembered. It was seventh period today, band, and we were just playing a game since it was our first day and none of the upper class men were there. You wanna know what she said? She said she was going to buy some granola bars. Honestly, I was surprised and wondering why she was randomly telling me this, and I asked her why? She said she was going to keep them in her locker, and that I wasn't going to miss breakfast, i wasn't going to skip it this year. It was then that I remembered what had happened last year, and I could honestly say I wanted to cry. I didn't even know why. Luckily, I didn't, as it was the first day of school and I didn't want to seem like an attention whore right off the back of things.
but she really remembered? she really cares? I wonder if she told another friend of mine, whom i trust of course, as she is not one to stab people in the back about personal things to strangers I don't know (though I wouldn't be surprised if she knew long before she did) and I have a feeling I won't be able to get away with skipping meals at all this year.
Honestly, as much as I am touched by the thought, I honestly can't physically eat lately. I just can't. I've been sick and it's getting worse, and honestly I'm afraid to tell mum about it because I don't want her stressing out if it's something big, as the taste of blood has been lingering in my mouth and my kidneys been killing me, and my head having those random pains where it feels like someone is stabbing my head. It doesn't last long, but it's always in the same place. always. I don't know what to do by the time second semester comes around, as that's when gym comes along. I can hardly manage marching for band; idon't know if I can handle running and whatever else high school gym forces you to do.
There's no way I can get away with hiding the food either, because I'm sure she's going to make me eat it in front of her, right down to the last bite. Perhaps I can throw it up? I've never forced myself to throw up before, though, and throwing up doesn't seem very fun when you're sick, let alone doing it every morning because you can't physically eat without your stomach trying to murder you. -
I think i should go draw some and get my mind off of things
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After drawing angsty s---, I think I've managed to get a hold of my self and stop being a p---- , for the moment.
someone should come talk to me so we can get a new page, clearing all this stupid s--- ^~^ -
Hey.
if you are still here, that is -
hey ^~^
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