I'm just going to post my poems here..
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What do you do when people run away from you but not before they promise an eternity?
What do you do when you can't shake off this feeling of being worthless?
What do you do when you ask for help and they say you're okay?
What do you do when everything is caving in, crushing you slowly?
What do you do when shadows are your best friend?
What do you do when people look at you with so much shame?
What do you do when people expect so much of you?
What do you do when you've lost more than gained?
What do you do when .. It's all just too difficult and you just want to give up?
What do you do when that person is you?
What do you do when the monster is you?
LIE_EIL -
Wow..
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...Haha. .-.
Sometimes all I have to do is think of you.It satisfies the thought of missing you. Because only then would I know that you were real.
And not just a fragment of my imagination. Yeah, It hurt a little too much each day to realize how much I f---ed up.
And to think that maybe.. Just maybe if I wouldn't have done that then maybe we'd still be together.
You know? March 15, 2012. A year and a few months. A Lot of weeks, even more days. They went by so fast.
The first five months. In the blink of an eye they disappeared. In the split of a second they vanished to never return.
The next few you hurt me so much. So damn much. I've never been that hurt in my life. Yet I still loved you like day one.
You were still an angel in my.. Blind eyes. My friends, they knew you were wrong. They told me more than enough times.
I tried. God knows I tried to end it all. And I did. Somewhere after your birthday. You were numb as so was I. I needed you and you needed me.
That's all that mattered right? We had proven the world how much we needed- loved each other. We were free to go.
...Wow. That wasn't the case though. Now I know why they say love is blind. I let you date them. And you became..
Distant. Yet I still loved you. Like day one. Or more. And it's weird you know? I have never loved something or someone so much.
You'd come to me for help. Help.. With your other relationships that didn't involve me. And it hurt.
It hurt each day that we were apart because it always felt like I'd never see you. It felt like my chance with you was gone.
Like they had a better chance with you. And I was okay with that. I knew I wasn't good enough for you. I've always known that.
But it still hurt. When he broke up with you you were numb. I wasn't dating anyone else because.. I was yours and you.. I don't know.
We're you mine? But you came. I comforted you. You grew happy as I fell with depression. You had me why did you go looking for him?
Why did it hurt so much when we had something going of months? I couldn't understand. Yet I still loved you. After you put me through that I still loved you.
Tell me. Is this what love feels like? Because if it is then I don't like love. It hurts too much. The person you love hurts you so much.
You'd get jealous and I'd feel wanted even loved in a way. I guess you were scared to loose me but angel, you'd never loose me. You'll never lose me.
Yeah. You dated other people and it killed me. I knew you'd somehow end up with Chris. I knew it. That's why
I didn't like him. That's why we never liked each other. You dated him and broke up. I guess that in that year
You dated at least five people or more while you were with me. Or.. While you made me believe it. Did you even loved me?
Did you ever love me? ...I'm sorry. I hurt you too but never like that. I never dated anyone while I was with you. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you.
Sometimes I hate you. Or hate the fact that I love you. I hate you because I love you. And it's not the same love anymore.
It's not. And It sometimes scares me because we promised each other to never forget about each other. Or forget the feeling we shared with each other.
But I guess you move on faster than me. I'm pathetic. I guess I just want you to know that I'll never forget you. I'll always love you. But I realize that I need to let you go.
I'm sorry. I hope he treats you better than me. I hope he makes you happy like I once did. And I hope he doesn't hurt you.. Like I did.
I'll try to move on too. It will just take another couple of months. ...Hopefully. ...I'm sorry. -
There's this girl I know.
Who sits in the dark and cares no more
Who finds comfort laying on the freezing floor
She waits till dawn to finally get some sleep.
Because all night she weeps.
There's this girl I know
Who sits in a corner as her mask dissolves.
She has millions of problems she has to solve
They all say she's a role model
But they don't know all her emotions are bottled.
There's this girl I know,
Who sees the world in black and white
All because she lost the fight
The fight to keep seeing a rainbow at the end of a rainy day
The fight to be okay
She lost it all
On the day summer turned to fall
Do you know this girl, too?
Who could she be? No clue?
Pay more attention and you will see.
A lot of us show what others want us to be.
Don't be surprised if this girl turns out to be me. -
Society is just a lie.
Hypocrites.
Liars.
Backstabbers.
Thousands and millions saying its okay.
Yeah, of course it's okay.
As long as you don't hurt them psychically.
Oh, no. What to do with bullies?
What to do with someone getting hurt?
Yet, behind a screen many hide.
'Attention Whore'
'Emo freak'
'Killyourself'
They type.
A smirk playing on their lips.
After all they say words won't hurt.
Oh, how wrong they are.
A few minutes later a body falls.
Hours pass, people turn the news on.
That person committed suicide.
Hottears stream down many faces.
There's only one reason to blame.
Oh, yes. Just one reason.
The reason that persondied.
And many people are to blame.
Pushing that person to the edge.
Pushing them off.
The people are falling, too scared to spread their wings.
In fear, that their wings will get cut off.
In fear, their wings will be judged.
So, they fall, further and further each day.
Society is just a lie.
Hypocrites.
Liars.
Backstabbers.
As many more turn on the news.
They all weep.
Oh, how beautiful she was.
Oh my, why did he dothat?
He was just starting life.
She had many dreams.
They all cry.
Get my point?
Hypocrites.
Liars.
Backstabbers.
They.
The reason many died.
The reasonmany will die.
We are all a part of society.
We have to take a stand.
We need to take a stand.
But, we need to change ourselves first.
Before we can try tochange the world.
Are we all a lie?
Fake?
Hypocrites?
Backstabbers?
LIE_EIL -
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This Life
Please listen to me.
I don't want to live this lie anymore.
This just has become to much.
I'm no longer that fearless warrior, you loved so much.
I'm no longer that happy child, but a haunted one.
Please, let me go.
Don't worry, I'll be fine, for the very first time.
I'll finally be able to fly with those angels so high.
I'll no longer feel pain or be cold, because I'll find somewhere warm.
Where I'm going? I don't know.
But it's not your choice anymore.
I'll be fine, finally a real smile will shine.
I wont have to wear that frown you hated so much, for I will find a cure to stop the storm.
This is my goodbye.
Tell mommy and daddy, I tried.
Tell my brother, my love for him never lied.
Tell them I love them, and that my love for her never died.
Tell everyone I'm sorry, but I can no longer hide.
Please never shed a tear or be sad.
I know I'm ungrateful but I just can't anymore. -
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You
Home alone
A tear slipped down
Followed by millions
As I sliced around
Crimson droplets of pain oozing out
A thousand tears flowing down
Agonizing screams were faltered
Crushed dreams were altered
Theres only one question on my mind
As I stared back in time
Your words pierced worse than the blade
You're words stabbed deeper then the f---ing 'cat'.
But I'm still begging for you to stay.
You're the sea.
Drowning me.
Yet you're the air that I need.
Just give me a reason to stay.
Slice after slice
A little deeper each time
More and more blood running away
More and more pain fleeing the other way
A knock on the door
Distracted me from the monster
Staring back from the mirror
A wicked laugh escaped my quivering lips
As you shouted and screamed for me to stay
My whole arm was shredded.
The bathroom floor was bloody.
My body falling
My eyes closing
And my soul rising
I waited and waited for you to open the door.
Just to see the face you would make when you saw me sprawled on the floor
And I guess you didn't care
But when you think of me
Remember that you're the reason
This happened to me
I hope it f---ing haunts you forever
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