MxM?
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Thread Topic: MxM?
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Emerson had pulled away from the conversation as to make sure he didn't seem like he was being a nosy person. He was picking at the skin on his thumb until he noticed Xander returnin. He smiled happily and waved slightly as to give off a kind and peppy vibe even if the negative blood was flowing throughout his veins. His foot tapped gently against the ground as he examined the boy that his heart pounded for. He inhaled deeply.
"Ready to head in?" he asked. He was prepared to scope the place out in search of something that would help him feel better. If he was lucky, his old buddy would be hanging around like always. Now, this "buddy" wasn't a buddy at all. A year and a half back, when Emerson was getting into the wrong crowd, this was the boy that would supply him with either alcohol or mild drugs. Emerson had never intended to get as high as possible, he just desired something to ease whatever feelings he had. -
care_bear19 NoviceXander wore a confused face. Whe n he looked up at Emerson, that's when it hit him. The moonlight danced off of Emerson's black hair, and cupped his face in a soft glow of light. His smile was bright white against the dark night and Xander's heart skipped. His eyes twinkled slightly. Finally, he registered what Emerson had asked him. "Y-yeah. Let's go" he said and walked inside.
The party was booming, with people milling around and dancing. Some of the guys from the foorball team were holding up the qb chanting 'Chug chug chug!'. In the living room, people were dancing and grinding. Suddenly the music stopped and a voice came over the mic. "Hey everybody! Hope you're havin a good time but first, my friend Xander has a confession to make!" Melanie said into the mic and gestured him over. Xander sighed. This isn't what he meant when he said he wanted to come out at the party. His stomach filled with butterflies and his mouth wnt dry as everyone turned to look at him. He slowly walked up to the front and took the mic, clearing his throat. -
Emerson, though perplexed by by the situation at hand, stood off to the side while he awaited the crazy confession that was going to be announced by Xander. It would most likely be something about finally finding a relationship, and this made his mood drop even more. He decided he would wait before heading off to find his old friend. He pat his pocket to made sure he had a little bit of money. The guy hardly charged him, aware of his situation.
He leaned against a wall off to the side, eying the football players in a cautious and watchful state. His arms crossed over his chest as he stared at the boy who he loved dearly but would never tell. -
care_bear19 NoviceXander stood there a moment and Melanie nudged him. He held the mic up. "Oh, uh, sorry guys guess I'm just a little nervous." he said and put on a daziling smile. "Well,most of you know me from school I guess. Weather it's from choir or class, doesn't really matter. Friends are friends" he started "Anywa, even though this isn't exactly how I wanted to say this..." he glanced at Melanie who gave a smile and shrugged. He looked up at Emerson and made eye contact. His stomach built with butterflies again, and he calmed slightly, looking into the boy's blue eyes. "I'm gay" he said and put the mic down, keeping eye contect with Em.
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He swallowed heavily and tried to conceal a happy, overjoyed grin. His attention directed itself to the ground and he nodded with a small chuckle. The immense joy in his stomach was enough for everyone. But it wasn't what he needed to feel better. He walked off, then, to navigate himself around the fairly large home. His friend usually hung around the barely used rooms or the corners of each place he visited.
"Wow," he whispered to himself. Though excited about Xander's sexualitym he worried slightly. -
care_bear19 NoviceXander felt his heart fall slightly as Emerson looked down and walked out of the room. His breathing picked up slightly and his chest tightened. The dj started playing music again and Xander had to sit down. He didn't know how long he sat there, head in his hands, but eventually a boy with spiked red hair came over and offered him a drink. He took it and looked at it. Coca cola he thought, unaware it had alcohol and some light pills in it and downed the whole thing. He smiled at the boy as his vision blurred slightly, from tears. "thanks" he said to him.
"No problem" the boy said "I'm a buddy of Emersons" and he got up and walked away. -
When he failed in finding the male he had set out to receive the necessities from, he burst into a random, empty room. He shut the door tightly and collapsed next to the bed in a heap of sniffles and total upset. He was finally breaking down for the first time in a few months. One major flaw with Emerson was the need he felt to hold back his emotions. This led to a total build up of everything, and then he was done for. He was a ticking time bomb that could set off and explode at any time, and that scared him. He didn't want anyone to deal with that. As he cried, he held his face in his hands.
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care_bear19 NoviceXander didn't want the world to see him cry, so he got up and stumbled slightly. He walked down the hall and into a random room. He closed the door and slid down against it, tesrs fslling down his face. Xander wasn't one to cry, he was often a happy person. But after holding everything with his father in, and trying to protect his mom and siblings, watching Emerson walk away was too much and the tears just wouldn't stop. It wasn't until he looked up that he noticed the other person in the room. He instantly forgot about everything as worry crossed his face.
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Emerson hadn't been paying attention to the other male when he walked in. Too focused on his own tears to even dare to look up, his crying persisted. He gripped his face tightly to attempt to cease his tears. Crying wasn't an activity to enjoy, even if he knew he was weak, he didn't like showing it. What he would most likely do after blubbering would be to head to the gym for a little workout in order to blow off steam. For then, however, he sniffled and let his tears flow.
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care_bear19 NoviceXander wiped his face and crawled over to Emerson, sitting next to him. "Ya know, even the bravest faces crack." he said looking at the brunette. The only other time Xander had seen Emerson cry like this was when his mother died, and only when they were alone. His heart broke, seeing Emerson in so much pain. He wasn't sure what to do, so he decided tht maybe just being here, so Emerson knew he wasn't alone, was the only thing he could do. Unless Em asked him, which Xander knew he'd never do. He put a hand on Emerson's shoulder.
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At first, Emerson was terrified because he hadn't been expecting the boy. Once he caught sight of him by lifting his head uo, he frowned, but his eyes continued to roll out tears one after one. He leaned forward and hugged his best friend silently. The feeling of Xander just being there comforted him to a certain level. His hands and body shook slightly. Emerson felt horrible for crying because everyone's problems were worse than his, and letting himself be in that state of mind was selfish in his opinion. He pulled in a deep breath and apologized once.
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care_bear19 NoviceXander wrapped his arms tightly around his brunette friend. " Don't you dare apologize. You just shush, okay? It'll be alright" he hated seing his friend like this, and hated himself more for not noticing earlier. He knew things had been bothering Emerson and he still dragged him off to the stupid party anyway. He sighed lightly and focus on his friend, stroking his hair lightly.
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The dark-haired male held tightly onto the other boy. He gasped and thanked the other for caring so much. The idea that he was being comforted by the person he had been hoping for was exciting. He was more surprised at how things had played out with the same room and meeting. He was thankful, however, and kept a grip on Xander. "I'msoupsetthatIwantadrinkorevenadrug...I'm gonna be just like my f---ing dad," he spewed way too fast for most people to understand. He had told Xander when he was hanging around the wrong crowd.
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care_bear19 NoviceXander's head swam slightly from the drink the guy had given him earlier, but he stayed sharp, his worry for Emerson overpowering it. "No you aren't. You're an amazing guy, Em. You will never be your father. Having a drink every once in a while, to let off some steam and relax, isn't the same as drinking everyday and screaming at your son" he said rubbing Emerson's back, soothingly. He leaned back and looked Emerson in the eyes "You are not your father."
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Emerson stared back at him with his eyes continuing to sparkle from his tears. He swallowed once more as to keep back anything that might spill out. The teenager pulled his hands back and wiped ferociously at his eyes and cheeks to dry them, he wanted the sign of weakness gone. He did not want Xander to have to deal with anything when the boy had just been crying himself. So, in an attempt to change the subject and turn the tables and conversation to Xander, he asked, "But what's wrong with you?" He hoped that this would draw the attention away from himself and to Xander.
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