Mkay this is what's going on in my mind.
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Thread Topic: Mkay this is what's going on in my mind.
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Well then apparently everyone decided that I'm their official middleman for everything. I absorb the impact of rage and is expected to keep everything happy and dandy and puking f---ing rainbows.
i JUST started being a positive person and then suddenly they see me as the cheerful f--- that can keep everything happy, seriously it was hard enough for me to turn into derpwad and now you're giving me all this, it's going to make me a depressed emofag again.
You know what else? I tend to take on responsibilities that aren't mine but I feel compelled to cause it's my duty as a friend to keep people safe
I rush to people's aid constantly if they need medical help (basic first aid certificate obtained) and now I find out my friend has abusive parents so now I want to figure out how to keep her safe
So all in the end, I'm failing everything (school wise), I have emotional problems, My counsellor thinks I'm nuts, my friends are f---ing me over, and yet I'm still supposed to be the awesome one who can't ever get down, being the most 'emotionally strongest' one of the group is a disadvantage seeing as people think i'll NEVER need help mental health wise because they think i'll bounce back like a robot. The end. I am a pushover that wants to please everyone.
But am secretly dying to cry.
Told you, you wouldn't want to hear x.x
You have no idea how much I want to just fall to my knees and just cry, scream to the heavens why people have chosen me to be the middleman.
But I can't because I'm 'not allowed to'
I just want to cry. I have no shoulder to cry on. I AM the shoulder to cry on, but I can't f---ing cry on myself. -
Easy way to understand for vocaloid fans: Roll again, roll again, I will roll again just like I did before oh that girl said, that girl said ~Rolling GIrl
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How on earth are you not allowed to express emotion? What are you, a Vulcan? Don't listen to them, roar if you freaking have to! }}:D
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because I can't stand the thought of the people around me seeing it happen.
f--- it, f--- it all. -
TINGY I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN DX
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D: I'm sorry Ting, I know how you feel. I used to be that for a long time. But you need to take care of yourself. I'm always here for you, I'll be the shoulder to cry on. One person can't bare it all. *huggles*
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;-; Same here Tingy... I know exactly how you feel Dx
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