Jadieeeee
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Thread Topic: Jadieeeee
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umm.. ah ok... I dont know what the f--- is wrong with me lately, or why I've been so sad and everything. Like I keep thinking about just driving away and how anywhere is better than here. I know I have friends and people who care about me and a fun job and stuff. but lately I've been having trouble with school stuff that normally I understand. and I've been like, pulling myself away from people more and more. and a few days ago I made a list of all the stuff I would bring with me if I did leave. and I even started writing a letter saying why I left and stuff, but it looks like a suicide letter. and I've used my good knife to do not good things to myself and I dont know why I did that but I did it more than once. and this is all recently, some stuff sooner than others so theres like no event that made me sad or anything. I feel like it is from holding so much in for so long. like all the stuff I told you yesterday, that Ive never been able to tell anyone else, not even my best friend. even around her I act like everythings fine. but telling you that yesterday did make me feel better, really. but I'm still thinking about how much I want to get the hell out of here, like by any means necessarry.
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..I.I honestly don't know what to say...Carla,when have you started feeling this way?
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:/ I dunno EXACTLY. I've been wanting to get out of here for like a year. but a lot of this just the last week or two.
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I'm really sorry...I don't want you to feel this way.Yet...god f---ing damn it,I just wish I had the right words to say to help you...I just feel like a total fail right now XP
...Anything I can do to,to lift your spirits a bit?
s---,I gtg in a few monutes XP sorry... -
No.. I love you Jade. I think just telling you this helped. like everyone thinks my life is so easy and perfect because I always act so happy all the time. I dont want you to think that.. I want you to be the one person who really knows me and what I really feel deep down inside.
sorry again for telling you this stuff though..
awh no! its only 9 xP -
Well if telling me helps you then,that makes me feel a bit more reliefed.Thing is..what concerns me is that you actually feel this way,like..I hate it when your upset XP
Nu,don't be.If you hold it in it'll just make it tougher in the future,get it out while you can.
Sorry XP I'm taking some pills for my migrane headaches and what not.Damn things are strong. -
telling you does help. I love you so much, like really you are what I live for right now, I get through every day just thinking about being able to talk to you. I promise I wont be upset anymore, like really theres not good reason for me to be sad, I'll tell you everything right away instead of holding it in like this like I've been doing, ok.. I dont want you to feel hurt because I am.
can you stay a liiiittlleee longer? :/ please? -
I love you too...so much.I'm glad I can really help you that much.You don't need to promise just cause you don't want to see me upset,y'knu.But,yeah,just talk to me when you need me...I'll be here.
..For your sake,alrighty then. -
You really do help that much, really. and yeah.. well I need to promise because I dont want to be upset either. and thank you so much, you are always here for me and you care and you understand like no one else possible could. I love you so much Jade.
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damn it I typod. *possibly :P
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Well,thats good.And no prob,hell I love you...I'll be here for you(and you knu that).I love you too,so damned much.
No prob. -
Hehe..typos.
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do you know how f---ing lucky I am to have you? I really want you to know, I care about you so much Jade and I love you so so so so much.
now that I've like ruined both of our nights and made everything all depressing... I dunt wanna talk about saddness anymore.. this ish my attempt to be funneh right now: I WANT Y'KNU'D. I dunno why I just remembered that and wanted to say it... hehe. -
I think I have an idea...considering all that was said yesterday and today,yeah you are pretty lucky.And so am I,keep in mind that I'm not an exactly a perfect guy...I have my deadly flaws XP
You didn't ruin them,we just got at a closer level..now.Alrighty.
XD I knu'd that :P but I think y'knu'd that I knu'd.hehe. -
yesh I'm EXTREMELY lucky. and you are perfect to me.. by the way you can tell me anything.. I told you everything y'knu.. just please no more depressing-ness tonight though xP
yeah, I think we really did. theres no way I couldve told that to anyone else..
xD hehe. do I have to say something else then to freak you out more? hehe I bet I can make your face turn red..
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