I feel bad but..
- Locked due to inactivity on Aug 4, '16 4:16pm
Thread Topic: I feel bad but..
-
my best friend is really boring :/
-
ok no ones gonna read this so I'm just kinda telling myself, good.
I went with my best friend, her name is Jessica, to her cabin. just us 2 cuz she has her lisence. but, all we did was sit around and watch movies and eat junk food while we were at the cabin, and went to her grandma's house and played card games, and went to her aunt and uncle's house and did yardwork. and she obeys all the traffic rules and freaks out if she does something even the slightest bit wrong, like going through a yellow light.
so it was pretty f---ing boring.
but she's abused by her parents and she had cancer, and she's my best friend. aww but ahhkk I don't know what to do about this, I guess I'll-- actually I have no idea. jus stay best friends but it's boring now that... I dunno. mehhhh :/ -
oh and guess who called me when I was with Jessica? but she thinks he seems like a creeper, so I didn't answer the phone and I didn't tell her anything really about me and him hanging out and stuff.
but I called him when I got home, he had just wanted to see if I was doing anything and wanted to hang out.
the thing is, hanging out with marc and nik is probably what makes hanging out with Jessica seem so boring. and I only do the 'daytime activities' with marc and nik (so no drinking and stuff..). but with them I go to the beach or kick their asses at video games or just drive around at 150 mph.... with Jess, we drive around too now that she has her lisence, and thats cool, but besides that we just sit around. and do... nothing.
:P -
mmm telling myself what's up helps me think about it, but it doesn't help me solve anything. ehh. oh well. I'll just do whatever... and see what happens.
but I don't want to lose my friendship with Jessica... cuz she's my best friend. but she's so boring.. but I guess she's the friend I've had the longest, cuz I always move before I can have friends. and people do change. but I definately don't want to leave her as a friend. especially since it would seem like I was ditching her for a guy. but the thing is I wouldn't be, since I don't want to have any sort of relationship other than friends with them. -
ahhhkkk talking to myself written down on the internet or talking to myself out loud or anything it makes absolutely no difference. Im not the person who figures stuff out. I just go with it. and I've created so many problems for myself cuz im too nice and s--- like that. I don't stand up to my parents or my friends I just turn things into a joke and I have already lost my f---ing mind. and I know this. but i still don't do anything... I would have gone crazy way sooner but we always ended up moving so I got away from my problems. or maybe I would be a completely different person if we hadn't moved so much.
-
this isn't helping me at all I'm just making it worse. and I don't want you guys to know any of this stuff even the stuff I've already said. good thing no one will read this I hope. I'm gonna keep pretending to be a happy person with no problems. yup. I'm ok. it's all good.
ahh f--- it I'm going to bed. -
I'm not to bright on advice but if I was in your situation I'd hang out with all the friends equally,like hell be glad you have them is what I always say,even though they aren't to exciting,still,you might need them one day and all.
I used to have a friend who was kinda boring but I hung out with her either ways cause I was her only friend and I ment a lot to her,she moved though.
Hopefully this pointless speech helped you out a bit,lol. -
Sad times.
-
She had cancer and is abused by her parents? Poor thing :\ You don't have to hang out with her all the time, but you could both do something fun like throw water balloons or go swimming, and chase an ice cream truck :P something entertaining..
-
aw I said no one was supposed to read this xP
thanks guys.
@ lil, I let her choose what we do usually, she never wants to do that kind of stuff. she has a pool in her yard and she never wants to go swimming. it kinda sucks. :P
This thread is locked, therefore no new posts can be made.
