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Good lawdy I look like a contradictory b---- đź’€
I just dislike her but I still love her so much it hurts -
When my parents forced me to break up with her, it was weird.
I felt devastated, but at the same time relaxed?
I was so set on being the perfect significant other that I couldn’t see how much it was hurting me.
I wish she had cared. -
Maybe she did maybe she didn’t who knows. I never will.
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Having a f---ing breakdown right now because I need her. I need to know if she still cares. I need her. I can’t do anything without her.
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Even if I could contact her, I wouldn’t.
I didn’t allow her to respond when I blocked her because I knew that if there was the chance she cared and tried to tell me not to do it, I wouldn’t have. It was for our own good so she wouldn’t get hurt. But it hurts so badly. I thought I’d be okay after a while but I’m not. -
And I know she hasn’t been thinking of me at all but still. I want to convince myself she still thinks of me but matter of the fact is she likely does not.
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I keep looking at old messages and thinking that maybe she cared but she didn’t. She couldn’t. She probably didn’t. I just wanna know if she did. I have to know.
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I wish I never met her
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At night I’ll pretend she’s comforting me and then I’ll snap out of it and remember how things really are and it hurts
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I want all of it to stop but it won’t and I f---ing hate it
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She could have looked for me. She could have. She’s on one of my friends friends list and she’s in the same server as my cousin.
I’ve waited so long for her to reach out to me but I know it’s never going to happen. I want to stop waiting but I can’t -
I’ve thought of her every single day since and I want her out of my f---ing head. I was so f---ing upset the first few nights that I couldn’t sleep. I literally f---ing drank niquil cold and flu medicine just to go to bed 💀
Not sure if thats dangerous or not but I’m still alive so ig it’s all right -
Gah damn that was a lot of f---ings in one paragraph LMFAO
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One day when I move on from this I should come back to this thread and count all the f---s to see how many f---s I wrote
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I f---ing hate myself because I can’t move on like a normal f---ing person
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