Shrouded despair and forgotten ambitions
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Thread Topic: Shrouded despair and forgotten ambitions
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Ok first off that sucks man
Second off... You should move here xD -
Ok Alexi I got you a list of the most accepting states here if you're interested lol
I'd move to Canada tho xD -
First off I agree
And second off yes lmao
Also thank you bestie -
Yeah dude that's f---ing awful
It's not the best state but like... My towns chill... xD
You're very welcome lol -
Yeah, it is what it is tho
Fair enough lol
Slay lol -
I know, but still
Yeah lol xD
You're welcome bestie lmao -
Fair enough
Yeah :’)
Lmao elay -
‘Your friend seems like she’s scared of me’ *my mum says accusingly*
HmM i WoNdEr WhY
Also she’s just a shy person f--- off- -
This woman always ruins my days for no good reason I’m sick of this s---
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Like I was actually enjoying myself, coping just fine, then she goes ahead and starts being rude
Is there a reason you hate me? Other people have a reason. Other people hate me because they’re my bullies. You’re my f---ing mother. Do you just need to hate someone for some reason? Did I piss you off as a kid? Am I just that much of a bad person? Bc my friends don’t think so. I’m not dumb enough to think that my friends hate me. If they hated me they’d never talk to me. And b----, they talk to me every day. Am I selfish to you? Am I selfish bc I sh and cry? Am I a bad person because I frequently have panic attacks, that are caused by you? This morning, yesterday, the day before? Every day because of you. Does that make me a bad person? Because nobody else thinks so. It’s just you. You have the f---ing audacity to ruin my self esteem. To make me hate myself. The only things I can turn to is my coping tools because you make me scared of confiding in people. I hope one day, when I’ve moved out and healing, writing about all the trauma you’ve caused, living with a lover or my best friends in a nice apartment on the other side of the world, you figure out why I’m not in contact with you. That you wake up one morning, aware of all the s--- you’ve said and all the panic attacks you caused me. I hope you know you’re a big reason I have to go to therapy, but by then it’s too late and I’m never talking to you again. f--- you -
You made me hate this city
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And now I’m like rlly scared to sh. It’s good that I’m not doing it, but not out of fear. She yelled at me this morning bc she found a new one on my wrist
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She burst into my room at three am and started yelling at me bc she had a “gut feeling”
To sum it all up she just gave me the bs, I was being dramatic, my fault, I shouldn’t be so hard on her, etc etc. I finally try to confide in her and she forces it out of me at 3am. She still thinks she’s an amazing parents and the things she’s said “wasn’t her fault” which is absolute bulls---, but yk, I’m just being dramatic by shing, good to know. And she thinks I’m in the wrong, too so yay -
Ugh, if only I hadnt been showing her something on my phone at that exact moment. If only she hadn’t read that notification like a nosy person. If only it had been 5 seconds after I got that thing then she wouldn’t even know. Then I wouldn’t be having a panic attack at 4am because she came in here because I’m just another worry
She wants to take me to the f---ing hospital, like no. I’ve done this s--- three times in an entire 5 months. You only know that I’ve done it twice. I didn’t even bleed when I did it. Why do you have to show your “care” through anger? -
Like just one slip up and she knows. How hard are things to hide from parents, ugh..
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