So today my friend said she didn't want to hang out with me
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Thread Topic: So today my friend said she didn't want to hang out with me
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And I'll share it with you guys :)
Today my friend said she couldn't hang out with me and my best friend Maura. She said it was because we cursed too much or spoke of the devil and sinned so much.
Though I sin, it's because humans were made to sin. Sorry if I sin, that wasn't my intention. Hasn't everyone sinned before? What makes me any different, because I dated a woman? Because I feel attraction to both genders? And if that's the case, then don't hang out with me. And I won't apologise if that's the case. Because I don't believe you're right, and I'm not afraid to correct you. But I'm not apologizing. God said male and female were meant to be together, to make a perfect relationship. But he didn't say we had to be. And I think that if we are meant to have these perfect relationships with the opposite gender, what does that truly mean? We can never be perfect, no human is ever perfect. No relationship is ever perfect. There isn't even a true perfect because so many people have different opinions, different versions, of perfect. So if a woman and a woman want to be together, they should because if it isn't perfect then let them move on and try again, fixing the mistakes done in the past. Because perfect is just something we have to practice for, something we can't reach but can try to believe we can just to create the illusion of moving forward.
And when have I ever cursed? With the exception of the great potato language I've never really tried to do that kind of thing. I claim myself to be silly, I laugh even if I don't want to, and it's all for your sake but you don't appreciate the gesture of how much I'm trying not to show you. People are broken and I don't want to show you the fractures of me, because there are a lot. A person once said if you take all of your problems and pile it next to another person's problems, you'd snatch up your problems right back. I don't curse because it's useless, just like this halogram of a world that we live on. And if I do curse, it's for comical purposes, not for me, because I've given up and I don't find the world funny when so many things are happening, but for your sake, and to keep trying to make you smile and hide you from the neverending knowledge that everyone is gonna die and that's just the truth, sorry. I don't go around making devil stars and summoning evil demon spirits, I'm not that kind of person. The worst I've done about the devil and my personal life being somehow entwined with him is saying 666, which is normal for a person who jokes around. And maybe even claim I'm going to Hell, because I'm bad and I know that one day if I die it'll most likely by suicide, and that's a sin.
Is that it? Because I want to die? Ha, people will read this and think I'm going too deep into this, but what if I need to, just to remind the world of how truly blind they are?
I've walked every morning of my days for atleast forty minutes, then walked the same distance in the afternoon under sweltering heat. In the winter, the mornings were cold and I didn't have a jacket half of the time. In the afternoon, my sweat drenched my clothes as I stepped into my home, a home of which sometimes we hear gunshots and sometimes the most poisonous spiders are seen. I've seen a wolf spider, a black widow, and a brown recluse all in the same passage of my life.
Now, that's only the personal problems. And that's just describing my regular day. Hygiene and mental problems are not a thing to be reckoned to in this conversation because I'm still trying to see how I'm not a compatible friend.
Have I been too much? Was I too depressing? I guess I'll just "stop" and hold in my emotions. Is that it? Will I one day explode until I really do earn that task of going to Hell? To go to the option of suicide? I would love to, really, but so many people are depending on me. I'm too smart, I'm too educated, I'm the star in my family that will get a great job and somehow save us all. I'm supposed to be some kind of hero, right? But no one even cares, no one even asks. Sometimes I just wanna walk out and someone say "Hey, how are you?" And ... And then I reply "Yes. Of course," but then normally the person would smile and we'd start a conversation. Sometimes though.. sometimes I just want them to say "I know you're not," because it would be true, it would be true to anyone and everyone. Because everyone is broken, we all have fractures and pieces. Sometimes that's why a person is so victimized, because they are used to other people picking up the shattered pieces but some, very few, people can pick up there own fractures. I am a person who just leaves the pieces on the ground and try to ignore how much it hurts inside.
So, I'm sorry.
But I'm trying to hide you from the truth, or to enlighten you of the truth, whatever you choose. Obviously, you weren't ready for the truth so I'll just be as I was, keeping you laughing, even if I know that you're hurting inside, too, that your fractures haven't crumbled outward but crumbled towards your inside, making you shattered in every way.
But I guess it's my fault for not warning you, it always is. And that's okay because I deserve this. I accept it.
I'm sorry.
And that's all I have to say on the matter, even if it's a lie. I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of death.
I'm very sorry.
Because it was too early, and now I'll never have a chance to tell you the enlightenment.
I'm really sorry.
The truth is- -
you're a retard?
I'm with the friend
Lmao she's just trying to appease her own Christian values -
I'm with you Brownie! If she's calling you a sinner because of your personality, or love interest, then you don't need to apologize. And you don't need that kind of friend. She is free to her own opinion, but you have every right to be yourself as well!
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This was very long
You've too much time on your hands
Over reacting -
get out of here devil child
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don't retaliate, talk it out and work it out
i think you're overreacting a bit -
and if it turns out she still doesn't want to be your friend, then oh well
find someone else to be friends with -
This was personal I didn't have to share it but I chose to 😅
I'm not overreacting, I write poetry a lot. If anything, I'm underreacting. But yeah I guess we'll see how it goes. I guess it could've been worse. -
lmao dude
I think you're overthinking this
you and her don't match
let her go out and make some GOOD CHRISTIAN friends
you go off and make more sin friends
it's not a big deal
live your life -
^EXACTLY THANK YOU
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Don't give a damn about her.
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the weird Christian people should stop trying to tell other people how to live if it bothers them that much just stay away from the people too sinny for them.
so yeah, what 'and' said. go do your own thing she's not a real friend if she wants to change you
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