I want to take back what I did when I was younger
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Thread Topic: I want to take back what I did when I was younger
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When I was in 5th grade, I didn't have many friends. Not a lot of people liked me.
There was this guy that nobody liked and was nice to.
I was the only one that was nice to him. I never said anything mean at all. Then this one day he started to get annoying. As always, I ignore him when that happens. But people were like, "Jacob stop it!" "Can somebody get him to shut up??" "Dude cut it out!"
I started to say some things to him. Things that made him cry. Things that turned him steaming red.
That's when it all started. That's how I got fuel up and bullied him -not physically though-
I would always say mean things and harrass him. I would cause him to cry everyday. I never realized how I was acting.
Everytime he came to school I would give him a look and say, "Ugh you're here."
I would always tell him that he's a conceited jerk that nobody likes and needs to get a life. I would always take his stuff and hide it. I would always try to threatened him.
He should've told on me. Who cares if I got in trouble? I needed to stop anyways.
At the end of the year I gave him the most dirtiest look and said, "I hope you'll never ever be in MY class again! I hope you move schools. No one even likes you, so why bother showing up? Just get lost you loser."
During my 5th grade summer, I couldn't sleep at night. I made him so miserable, I just couldn't take it. I cried as much as I made him cry. I wanted to tell him sorry sooo badly!!
The summer ended and we were moving onto 6th grade. I went up to Jacob and told him, "I'm sorry for what I did to you." he said, "Whatever." and treated me as if I didn't exist. Towards the end of 6th grade he actually started to get a little nicer but still seemed unsure about me.
Now when we got to 7th grade I told him WHY I was sorry.
This is what I said.
"Jacob, I'm so sorry for making you miserable in 5th grade!! I was a dog that barely had any friends so I just made you miserable! I'm really sorry I wish I can take back all those things that I did to you! I'm really sorry!!"
He said, "It's okay :)"
and now we're cool.
But now I've been mean to some people and I can't stop. I hate the way I am towards others. I hate how I have no self control and won't have the guts to tell myself to STFU and get back to living my life. I'm a b1tch and is failing to control myself.
Please help!
Well, I don't deserve any help anyways. -
I cannot change the future,
I cannot change the past,
I only have the present moment,
I must treat it as my last. -
That was a good quote. It makes sense :)
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Lil, he seems to have forgiven you. But realize this: most people in your shoes don't apologize and try to make it up to the people they hurt. You did and that's great =)
Good poem, Roady, that really DOES make sense! :D
Sure. You made the mistake of hurting him in the past, but we're all human and all humans make mistakes. Plus he seems to have forgiven you, and now it's your turn to learn from the past and make things up to him =) I'm sure you can do that, lol.
I'm sorry about the past with Jacob, but I hope things get better in the future, Lil. -
@TBK: Thanks :)
Yeah me and him do say hi to eachother and he teases me saying, "Hey look, it's a crazy person!" he's joking.
Maybe he's forgotten about it :) -
I agree with Kaitie and Roe, everyone makes mistakes and you have made amends with him which is good :)
I try not to remember much about the period of time after living in Japan and before 8th grade
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