My Page :D
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I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I had
You're all I had
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At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself talking to the moon.
Trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too.
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?
Ohoooo...
I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say I've gone mad
Yeah, I've gone mad
But they don't know what I know
Cause when the sun goes down
Someone's talking back
Yeah, they're talking back
Ohhh
[Chorus:]
At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself talking to the moon.
Trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too.
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?
Ahh... Ahh... Ahh...
Do you ever hear me calling?
(Ahh... Ahh... Ahh...)
Oh ohh oh oh ohhh
'Cause every night I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?
Ohoooo...
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
The only difference is that I talk to the stars.
They're out of reach shinning up so bright.
Smiling down upon me.
They listen but never answer back.
The whole night I spent talking to the stars like they're you.
Funny, they only come out at night when I most need them.
The same way you came into my life when it was all dark.
You left.. But you left me fractured not broken.
I guess I can live with that, right?
You're scared to shine.
What you don't know is that you're always shinning.
And like the song says..
I hope you're talking to the stars.. Or at least the moon.
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How -------- great. Just great. -_-
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.______. Meh. -_-
Broken: ... Hehh.. -
Breathe..
Broken: .-.
._. They make me mad..
Broken: I can tell.
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Zoey: You have the righ to be mad.
Chris: Just be careful..
Of what?
Chris: You know of what.
Broken: She's not that dumb.
._. I know. I will be careful.
Zoey: Don't listen to them.
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It feels like the depths of hell are right in my heart, burning away any happiness, erasing away all the laughs, only to add more love for the one who will never be mine..
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Home gurl you there?
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Dear ______,
Hey, I've been meaning to write this to you. I've been fine these couple of days. Not so depressed. Not feeling worthless all the time. So I must be improving, right? I'm trying to act happy, laughing and smiling, trying to fool everyone. Trying to
Fool myself.. But I guess it's not working. I had a serious talk with Leslie the other night. She said that my eyes give it away; give away the mask that I'm putting up for everybody. And then he said that too. He doesn't even know me.. Yet he can still tell. She, Leslie doesn't know me either. We've talk about two times? Maybe three. I feel a sense of comfort with her though. She had dealed with this stuff. Her sister too. Maybe that's why? Anyways, her mom had a serious talk with me too. I told her I wouldn't do it. She doesn't believe me though. Oh well. I'm dealing with problems better though. I don't really care about them. Maybe I'm numb or just learning to control them instead of them controlling me. What I have noticed is that I can't sleep. I find comfort in music instead of people. I feel like I annoy them when I talk about my problems. Music.. Though you've been there when no one ever has. I was reading the other day a status you put up saying 'despise all your promises you left'. Looking at the date I realize you had a reason to put that up but I never left. I had problems and I just couldn't tell you I was 'okay'. Not trying to be mean or anything because you know it's the last thing I would be to you but that applies to you right now. But hey! No worries. I'm fine right now. I think my wounds are healing. Saying your name doesn't hurt as bad as it did before.. Now, I can say that then my feelings betray me. So, I don't know what to say towards you. Just that I hope you find someone that love you.. But I don't think you'll ever find someone who loves you like I do. Not talking to you these past few days hurt.. But it's easier now than how it was a few months ago. They say that when you see someone in your dreams its because they miss you.. You have been in a few of my dreams. But I don't think that's true. I might be wrong.. Who knows. I just hope you're okay. Happy. Living. Because breathing doesn't always mean you're living. You deserve the best. Okay, no more talking about how I feel towards you. So, yeah I'm fine. Numb, actually but I don't find a problem with feeling like this. I loves you yesterday, I love you today and I'll love you tomorrow. Haha, I'm stupid. Sorry. Just be happy. That's all I've asked for and all I ask for.
Sincerely,
Me. -
Dear _______,
I think I'll write one of these.. Letters I gues Everytime I feel lonely. Nothing really happened these past few hours. These people just came and I made plans to go to some places with them. My friend also called and since it was her birthday I got to go to her house. She doesn't live far away from me maybe five, ten minutes? We were watching the Grudge and she was scaring me cuz.. She was laughing during the movie like it was the funniest thing ever.. Yeah no. I was not really scared just creeped out. But she's like my sister. She's been there when no one ever has.. I'm scared that she'll leave cuz in the end they always do. She might be moving to.. Well to there. I'm scared though. She's going to be so far away! ;~; But anywho, I had fun today. I'm a bit tired right now, I hope you're sleeping well, cuz I'm not. The last time we talked you said you weren't.. So I'm just hoping you are right now. School is almost starting and I'm scared and nervous as heck. For starters I don't know anyone except my friend.. That is if she doesn't move. Second, well I'm really shy.. Like extremely shy. .... I guess I'm just weird. Heh..I'm just genuinely scared. But whatever. Woah. My light just flickered.. D: It actualy scared me. My music is on pretty loud.. I wonder if my neighbors can hear it.. They be thinking: She's a strange child.. Hah. Sorry, getting or track here. Ever since he punched me into the wall both of my wrists hurt bad.. And also my room was.. Not how I left it the other day. Tf? Who came in here and what did they see? Not that I have nothing wrong in here but.. Learn some privacy man. Guess what? I'm probably going to New Mexico in a few weeks or days. I'm actualy happy, because I haven't seen my family in awhile.. Since third grade. Yup, last time I went over there. Have you noticed that when I get anxious or uncomfortable I start playing with my hands? Yeah.. Me either. Until that talk with Leslie and her mother. Yeah. I think I'm going to write you a poem. Like many more that I've written about you. You should read them some time. When you're not busy. I hope that isn't soon.. Not trying to say I don't want to talk to you of you're busy you won't have time to think about bad stuff.. You know what kind. But if keeping you busy doesn't help then I hope you're not busy. Okay, I think I'll stop for today. Goodnight my.. Just goodnight. Sweet dreams.
Sincerely,
Me. -
Whatever those are they're really awesome!
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They're letters to someone. Hah. They remind me or The Perks Of Being A Waflower. But thanks.
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Dear _______,
Hey. How have you been? I hope you're better than okay. I hope you're doing well. It's hot here. Really hot. Maybe that's why I always have a headache. Heh. It's three. I have no food in my stomach. Life is to short to eat breakfast. Hah. I was listening to pandora as I was doing my chores. The song you showed me a while ago came on and I had to change it. It hurts to remember the times when I had you close. I'd like to think that you miss me.. Some way or another. Maybe you miss me when I acted stupid or because of my lame jokes. Either because of my cheesy poems or the nicknames I called you. Just in someway. I said that I would write you a letter every time I felt lonely.. But I'd have to write you every minute of the day. It feels like so far I'm failing this thing called life. I hope I learn to be good at it. You were one of the few people that made me feel sincerely happy. Wait lemme rephrase that. You were the only one that made me feel happy. I had another restless sleep. No dream. No nothing. I've been wearing this watch on my wrist the whole summer and now that I took it off it looks weird. My 'tan' looks strange with the pale skin of where my watch was. It looks like its dirty because of the scars I have on the side of my wrist. My last scar was formed a couple of days ago. Maybe a week. Heh. I'm sorry. Can I tell you something? I'm scared to 'love' another person. I honestly don't think I'll love again. I don't believe in 'love' unless its with you. I may like them, I may have 'feelings' towards them but never close enough to the point I say 'wow, I finally love this person more than how I loved you'. Nope. Never. If you ever read this.. Which I'm highly doubting, I want you to know that I don't want you to feel bad. "My friend think I'm crazy but you're all I have.. You're all I have." Meh. I've also noticed I can't write what you might call happy poems. Unless I have you as inspiration. Call me weird but I call it.... Well.. Weird. Haha.. Hmp. My stomach hurts.. But of regret and just plain sadness. How's your dancing going? ..... .Me and my friend are probably going to make minion cupcakes! Haha I wonder how they're gonna turn out. Mmm. Water. Tasty.. Tasteless. Hah. I hope you don't find these.. Letters weird. And if you do a good weird would be nice. Meh. It's almost four now.. I hope you have a good day and I'll write to you again in a couple of hours. Bye. Be happy.~
Sincerely,
Me. -
Dear _______,
This might not be long because it's almost two am. I was talking to an old friend a couple of hours ago on the phone and her voice sounded so.. Different. My other friend said her voice sounded like Alvin and me being the smart butt said she sounded like Brittany. Hah.. We're going to see The Conjuring today. I'm excited and scared cuz well she's weird with scary movies. I was playing soccer today like an idiot by myself. I fell a couple of times, ran into things and jumped fences. Hah. I always kicked the ball the other way. It's hot here. I'm going to diieeeee! I'm kidding. I'm thinking of doing something good? I guess but I dont know what. My friend said sorry to be after an argument we had a few days ago. ...... Yeah. People annoy me. We want to change the society yet we forget that we are part of society itself. We need to change ourselves before we can change someone else. Yeah. The crickets are chirping so peacefully. It calms me. Ow! My foot fell asleep. . I wonder if you're okay. I hope you're okay. I'm okay, I guess. I miss the old times. "It's not enough to say I'm sorry.. It's not enough to say I'm sorry.." It's not enough. Heh. Why do I keep torturing myself? I ask myself that question all the time yet five minutes later I torture myself again. I wonder how life would be if I hadn't met you. Probably worse. Yeah.. I'm sorry. I'll stop now. I'm going to straighten my hair for the movie. Heh. Yeah. I miss talking to you. And there I go again. It's late and clearly I can't think right now. So I'll take my leave. Everytime I go I think of things to tell you.. Strange. Heh. Bye. Goodnight. I hope you're sleeping well.
Sincerely,
Me. -
Dear _______,
Hey.. Sorry I haven't written you today. It's been a heck of a day. I didn't fall asleep till four last night or this morning. I'm really tired. But I'll write this to you, cause you're worth it. I woke up today and everything was messed. We're not 'home' right now. My Internet is being stupid. I think it's because of where I am. Ehh. Me and my friend had plans to go watch The Conjuring so we went. Haha... I'm scared right now. My friend was screaming really loudly! I swear if I would've had duct tape I would've put it on her mouth. I was going to straighten my hair but since were not home I couldn't. I looked weird. Anyways she kept on checking out these guys. Honestly, yeah they were cute but not hot. Plus they were older than us. I felt really uncomfortable. We also snuck in to see the movie. Yeah. It was rated R and us being the bad butts went to see it. Haha I sound all weird. I wonder where you hid your wings.. Because to me you're an angel. Okay, I'll stop. I feel weird like I'm being watched D: It's a scary feeling. I can't think of anything happy to write about. I'm thinking of you.. I just have to think harder. ....... I'm sorry.. But I'm really tired. I've had a hell of a day like I said before.. I'd tell you about it but it's not worth putting it in a letter you're never going to read. So goodnight.. I hope you're sleeping.
Sincerely,
Me.
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