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I just...miss him...and even last night, there was still that sorrowful feeling in the midst of our time together. I couldn't really focus fully on what we were doing. My mind went off to another place, half the time...
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Late post.
Nah, not really. But, don't worry about me. I see you have a lot that's been going on. And, I'm sorry about all that. -
Don't get me wrong. I enjoyed our date and was just glad to have time with him...but...I think I just wanted to...
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Aaaaaaaaaaaagh!
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Why do I feel like this?
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And he apologized about it, not that he had any control over it. But, why am I stuck feeling this way?
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Also late post
Okay. I can see that you're kinda upset and I'm just wondering. -
It's just a me problem.
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Oh. I get it. I hope things get better for you.
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Thank you, and same to you.
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~When your love language is physical touch and quality time, but you can't touch your lover and your lover is often busy if you're not and autism is being a b---- so you can't express what you really want and/or mean when you're with your lover, so you have a mental breakdown because it's stressing the s--- out of you.~
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But, god, that man is so patient. Brandan always waits it out. He doesn't rush me when I'm having trouble expressing myself. He doesn't snap at me or run away when I'm just not able to navigate or process certain things. He waits out the entire situation. He lets me let it out. But, he doesn't just watch me. He helps me steady myself when I'm spiraling again. He helps me see the light when I shut my eyes again. He's there to listen when I'm frustrated, calm me when I'm angry, comfort me when I'm sad...and he never tells me to be happy. He encourages me to be happy, but he knows that if I'm not happy, telling me to be happy won't help. It's heartless and stupid--a thing often said by ignorant people who don't have depression and are just clueless as to what even the slightest form of it feels like. They never get it unless it hits them like it hits us...
But, he's been through a lot, himself. He's walked hell when he was my age, and here I am, as old as I am, and here he is, as old as he is...
God, I'm going to cry.
It is such a blessing to have him... and I don't care about our age difference. I really don't. When I reach my twenties, it wouldn't look half as "weird" as people think. And what the f--- is it to you if we're both adults?
I'm really glad that we're not the same age. He has wisdom that he passes off to me that nobody else took the time to help me learn. And boys my age are immature as I don't know what. I could never talk about life decisions such as living arrangements, work, emergency situations, and household duties. I could never talk about the effects something could have long-term on one's life; they never wanted to hear it. They just wanted to hear about videogames and sex. I can have deep, open and honest conversations with him, and I don't have to reason with him to get him to understand why we need to talk about stuff like this. I'm glad I have him, just as he is. There is not a thing I would change about Brandan. He sees himself as a flawed man, but I see him as the perfect husband...
I love him immensely, and I'll do any and everything I must to take good care of him. He is never a burden to me, and I will never see him as such. He's my precious baby and the only one I want. -
Though, I'll still miss you, whenever it finally happens, and however long that will be...
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You know, this is exactly the thing. This right here...
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Imma be honest. I don't know who the f--- that is, but they really need to stop. And they know better. This isn't their first warning. They know...
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