im screaming from my bedroom window
- Locked by breadgirl69 on Jul 26, '23 10:40pmReason: Owner's request
Thread Topic: im screaming from my bedroom window
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dunno what im even missing lol
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want it to stop
stop -
I think i am going crazy
Cant stop thinking about perishing lately
Things arent awful
I think I'm just.. tired -
will i ever actually be better
Does it ever get better
When does it feel less like im drowning -
f---kkkkk I've already f---ed my sleep schedule up.
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i need to respond to all of my rps but my brain is running at about two bits per hour
arguing with bf has taken all my energy x.x why are men so difficult. -
im not even mad, im just sad
i really feel like he's not thinking about me at all
and it's kinda f---t up that he said he would have been glad if i got fired? :/ like yeah my job takes up a lot of my time and controls a bit of my life and stresses me out but i love it and have found purpose through it???? like????
and its just so hard to explain to him over text because i feel like he's. not. listeningggg -
then why don't you talk to him in person?
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Because he travels for work and its not always that easy
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but doesnt that make it unfair if he says he'd be glad if you got fired? if he travels, it doesn't matter if you work, unless you could go with him. and since you like working, you would work. and also, if he travels, he must be really busy all the time, so it doesn't matter if you're busy too because you'd both be busy. hes pulling an a--hole move in my opinion
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Yeah he's for sure being an ass lol hes just mad that im not at his beck and call when he is home.
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He also tried to tell me he wasn't being serious when I got upset lol
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wow. thats sad. is he the type of guy to be like, "oh, im such a man, and real men don't do housework" or some s--- like that? if he is, he has an ass sense of manliness. personally, I think that the most manly thing a guy can do is do things females are "suppossed" to do and not b---- about it
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thats an a--hole move for him to say that. a--holes do something s---ty and then say, "I was joking" as if that is a good excuse for the s--- they've said
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Nah he's chill about that stuff, he cleans and cooks more than I do... but he does have a lot of internal toxic masculinity :/
Since he isnt home a lot, when he is he really wants me around as much as possible, but his house is an hour and a half from my workplace, and i have to be there at 7. So if i slept at his house, id have to get up at like 4 am to get to work on time, and I'm not gonna do that. I've had to cancel plans a couple times to cover shifts at work, which is part of why he's so sour about it.
Not so much that he was joking, more like he wasn't upset and that I was misinterpreting his tone? But he literally said he just wouldn't come home if he wasn't going to see me as much- which like, how else am i going to interpret that?
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