im screaming from my bedroom window
- Locked by breadgirl69 on Jul 26, '23 10:40pmReason: Owner's request
Thread Topic: im screaming from my bedroom window
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even if it's gonna kill me
anyways im not back but i am bored so im gonna s---post for a bit and then vanish back into the void if yall dont mind -
i am a bit tired i will admit
but i think today was okay -
i dont know how to write these plots out in a comprehensible way lmao
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i feel like every time i turn around my room is disgusting
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i think its pretty clear that everyone here hates me and i wish i could, like, shut this place out of my mind... but its so easy to come back here. hate it
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im tired but i really just want to be a bit creative
i am trying to work on my collective but i keep getting side tracked -
i really just want to find a quiet town somewhere far from here that has everything i need
but it cant snow too much bc i think i would die trying to drive in the snow -
i have feel dead in the water for the past week
i had two panic attacks in two days,,, today was better but exhausting.
i was in the play yard with the dogs all day. the group was really really good so there weren't any issues other than certain dogs playing too hard and some gate aggression. but i did feel overwhelmed when we were all rushing to get everything done at the end, it would be nice to have another person on the shift.
i've been having a lot of mania lately. Especially when talking to people. It feels hard to STOP talking sometimes, and I'll be talking so fast that I'm stumbling over my words and getting things mixed up a lot. Plus when I get like that I tend to make a lot of dumb mistakes, which can be risky at work. I get confused super easily, which is probably annoying to my coworkers.
mostly recording this all here because i have a psychiatrist appointment on the 17th to get back on some medication and maybe talk about also wanting a clearer diagnosis idk, idk how it'll go -
there's so many things i need to help with that tbh i don't know where to start, and their approach last time to therapy was not in a model that worked for me. plus my therapist was awful so.... reluctant to even try that again. but i'll take medication if it will make me feel less like im actively driving off a cliff.
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i am tired and hungry and craving chicken bites,,,,,,
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i really enjoy my job even if its rough sometimes and yeah the pay could be better but oh well
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excited for summer to pick up :)
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there is a bee hive of some sort inside of a tree trunk in my yard, right next to the path we take between my house and my parents, and right in front of where we park the cars
No one else seems to find this concerning. It will only get bigger ;^; i am so scared of bees -
Same, tho 🥺
I hope they spontaneously combust. -
Same?
I hate having to ask for more hours ;^;
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