Ripper's Edge
Thread Topic: Ripper's Edge
-
My brother just unknowingly hummed part of "It Has To Be This Way".
Heh. -
Nothing to see here. Just me talking my tired little head off.
Kinda wish I could...rest it on his chest.
That man...is a serious angel.
It's a fetish. -
I'm going to go, now, because it's getting too dark in here for me to see, and I can't really take this anywhere else.
*sigh*
We be needing a phone. Seriously. -
I don't have a crush to rant about, atm. I mean, no one that I could hope to call mine.
-
I don't feel too well.
I had a good day, so I thought, yesterday, but I found that I was wrong. I spent the day drawing manga, which felt like my happy place, but at the end of the day, my mom came and told me to "do this" to get ready for bed and "do that" like I didn't know any better. And she repeated herself, like, ten times as I was already in the process of doing the things she wanted! It really upset me and made me feel like s--- because it's as if she feels I'm not capable of doing things on my own.
It hurts my pride when she does this, and I already have low self-esteem as it is.
But just that one incident brought me crashing down after doing so well, and I realized: I don't have true happiness at any given time; it's all just a distraction. And though I laugh as I feel the pain but try to dismiss it, I'm really just dying on the inside. -
I'm tired of always being told, "Because you're a lady, you need to do this"; "because you're a lady, you need to do that."
"No shorts, and don't wear jeans so much."
"You are to serve everyone and do it with a smile."
"You are to take up all the cooking and cleaning." -
Call me what you want. I don't care. I ain't your girly-girl b---- you can tell to do whatever. I'll be submissive in areas that need that, but anything else, I'm my own boss, and you should know that.
My mom thinks I'm nowhere near lady-like. In all honesty, I'm a kinda masculine female, sometimes. So, just leave me alone. -
And alotta guys these days believe that love for a woman is only p---- deep.
So you know what I have to tell them? "Go f--- yourself."
If love is only based off how good our bodies are, how well we can please, how much we let you do... -
I wish life was better, but I know that's not an option for me.
-
And I'm actually angry when I think about how easy it was for my dad to give me a small something that I wanted, but he can't give me the things I need. Even if I just need them to listen, they can't give me their attention and understanding. When I tell them something, they can't just say "Okay", they have to argue their reasons as to why my request or concern is invalid!
-
And here comes my brother, tryna boss me around and demand food like I'm his footstool servant.
Why are you all like this? What the hell happened that made you decide "She'll be our doormat when she's born"?! -
I'm hungry, though. I should see if we can eat something, now.
-
Still, it doesn't help that I get lonely.
Everyone I know or am close enough to is mean, to say the least, so I don't have an option. I have to interact with them if I want company.
But, I don't want to. They're MEAN to me. -
Point made. My brother talks to me like crap, my mom stepped in to call him out, and then she spoke to me like crap when she was supposed to be defending me!
Wtf?! -
I don't want to be here, though.
Post a reply as a guest or Log In
REMEMBER:
- Do not harass or insult other people. Treat others how you'd like to be treated.
View all 10 forum rules
- Do not harass or insult other people. Treat others how you'd like to be treated.
View all 10 forum rules
