My Real Story
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Thread Topic: My Real Story
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So, I realized I never really told you guys my story and why I acted like I acted back two years ago. Many of you called me immature or annoying and a b----(saara). But honestly, I was venting out my anger and frustration. I never open myself up like this to anyone because I don't want to be seen as weak. But-here goes.
I was blamed - from a young age - with things I didn't do, like breaking stuff, stealing stuff- but I never did those things, I swear. The sad part about it was my parents never believed me. "When you get punished for your honesty, you start to lie." That's so true and I've lied about a lot of things just because my parents wouldn't believe me until they heard what they wanted to hear. I just kinda caved in and let them hurt me(physically) and thry said they were 'helping' me but it really wasn't helping. I was too young so I didn't know. 9 years old one night my father was in Indiana and my mom found her favorite picture of my brother missing and stormed to my room. All I thought was, 'God help me she's going to blame me again'. I had to lie and say I ripped up the picture and threw it away. She didn't believe me when I originally said I didn't do it. So she proceeded to bruise me, make me bleed-even shoved a picture of me off the mantelpiece into my mouth and I still have a scar in there to this day. Then she cut my first gold medals off and threw them away. Then proceeded to throw me onto her cold bathroom tiled floor(it's winter) and gave me a thin robe to sleep on for the night. She yelled at me for crying. Guess what? The next day turns out dad took the picture to show to his dad. He didn't know what happened but that I got in trouble. Mom came home and said sorry. Nothing else. It wasn't even heartfelt.
But my whole life I've been emotionally abused and sometimes physically. I thought emotionally was okay but it wasn't and I didn't know that. 12 years old I started cutting myself. I got caught and punished. My parents said I should be ashamed f myself and disgusted. "I already am" I wanted to say. But they weren't even worried about me. And let's not mention I got bullied for two years. So really I'm sorry for trolling a bit in the past but I was acting in anger and wen I got stopped I acted out on myself.
I don't care if you believe me or not, but this is my story that I've never opened up to anyone about before. I decided it was time so, yee... -
Some people say, why don't you hate your parents or why didn't you get help?
1. I was too scared to get help. I thought something bad would've happened to me.
2. Because when they're in a good mood they get you stuff but when they're not...it's too confusing and plus I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone ever.
Yes some people have it worse but I have had it pretty bad in my opinion. For three years whenever my parents raised their hands near me I flinched. Too scared I would get hit again and that's sad. -
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We all have our issues but gotoquiz is a nice place to just be free from your inner prison even though some people i here judge u for being the person u are deep inside but yeah -
:3 Thank you, you're one of the few people that probably like me for who I am and not who I pretend to be. My story is why I don't have many friends irl.
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Ur not so bad
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Oops wrong emot xD -
xD
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Woah....
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Oh my goodness
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Yeah...:/
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It's all good.
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I don't even think I was here far back enough to remember you ever being annoying or not. Idk. But I love your presence on here now! And I'm sorry your parents are like that
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Why do we all have terrible lives?
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We're all here because of our terrible lives
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.....I'm not.... o.o
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