my new official thread.
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Thread Topic: my new official thread.
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I found my intoxication. I won't say which song, but I found a nerve-racking song to help. I also just drank like half a cup of vinegar (because it is good and spikes my heart rate). And then just to ha finish it off I opened my mind and am going to just lay here letting my mind race.
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Why, just why...
I could have been anyone else, just not this wrecked lifeless carcass. -
Trying to tell myself that I am just in the wrong personality mood right now and that possible maniac depressive is just eating at me because I am still sensitive from my anxiety episode.
Actually, if these are my last few days here I am going to try hard to make them decent. I understand that no one really wants to talk right now and I guess that fine, but if anyone wants to then I promise I will put aside my conflicted agenda and converse with simple, practical language. -
That's actually fine you know.
I hate everyone and thing and I don't care.
I don't need a big rock to pull myself over the egde. -
Wendee are you okay? You're not acting yourself right now. And please don't leave.
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Phantom@ oh hi there, I haven't seen you in the forums,
I am sure it is, but I am actually fine (like you said, just being redundant)
Same-ish. I don't necessarily hate anyone but myself, people just tried getting I the way of my detonation.
You know what smith rock is?
Hicc@ I am fine, I just get like this sometimes when I am anxious or stressing over something. -
You were scaring me Wendee.
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I am going to go.
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Don't leave forever... -
I need real actuall help and someone who can acctuslly care to talk to. I don't want to be this thing anymore and there is no way I get rid of it myself.
But sadly, I don't think I can ever go back. I can't be the person I need to be and even if I could I can never take my past image away from people. I hate every moment of my pet and this moment too. I hatend this stupid battle that shouldn't exist that is screaming in my head and this unmistakable loneliness that I can't fill. -
Does anyone remember when I left the part of me who was begging to live? But you see that's the irony, I was screaming to have the part of me that was begging to die removed but if that happened, some thing went really wrong because i don't have any residual filea from that person.
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