My OFFICIAL thread
Thread Topic: My OFFICIAL thread
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Hey Alek
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"I"?
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Hey Hicc,
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I was told to tell you this. I don't know who it was that told me though.
Dear Alexander Beaugh, (which is pronounced Boa', right?)
When I can find the correct words to apologize then I will send angels down to tell you, but for now all I can say is... I.. am.... *emotional cough* I can't even... begin, to think of how to say it, but I think you know what I mean. Anyways, I can only really say... f---, I can't f---ing think... I am so emotional and ready to die... sorry.... *sigh* let me try again.
I... am done, living. I want to die and dissappear so badly I can't breathe... I cut so deep and sob so much and it is exausting. I can't bear to see the ones' I loves' faces anymore and I have actually began to refuse to look at some of them. Like I have said in the past, you can't help me and if anyone had any two sense at all they wouldn't let you see this so you don't have to worry, but I still need to give you a chance to know. I have tried to die so many times now I have lost count, and I swear on your life I am not joking in the slightest of ways. I have burdened the depression of being fat and ugly and being so predictable and pathetic and I can't do anything right and I just screw up all my friends and I... I have slammed my fists into brick walls so hard my fists bled and bruised. I have no hope and the places I have been and things that have happened to me --that I swear I will never tell -- have left me with my eyes closed starving ready to die; this is not a joke, I haven't eaten in nine days. It burdens me to open my eyes, but I can't live anymore! I am hurt so badly and people have hurt me so much.... *sobs* Alexander people have used me! I am so done with all of this and I am ready to die.
I am sorry I am not the person you knew. I am sorry that the world f---ed me up so bad I have become a pile of melted wax that has hard new without significant shape, I am sorry you had to endure my pathetic existence. This is good-bye, because I will not let death deny me anymore, I will break in if I have to but I can't do this anymore... *kisses passionatly* I love you, and I will miss your light. -
(As in like bow, yes)
*sigh* I know who that is.. and it's the one person that I need to not leave the world... -
I=me, myself. I don't know how to use italics.
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[ i ] text [ / i ] or < i > text < / i > , eh.
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I
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exactly
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Kill
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in the name of
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...??
Bloody hell :-/ -
*stumbles into thread soaked in crimson* *sobs* you aren't happening to just be stalking the forums, are you? f---, what the hell am I still doing here? I need some pain-killers, see you later... I guess.
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You trying to make me never want to talk to you again...? Because that's what you're coming to...
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hello
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