I love her so much but thinking about her makes me wanna cry
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Thread Topic: I love her so much but thinking about her makes me wanna cry
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breakingdown NewbieWhen people say you don't know what you have till it's gone they're right. I had the best damn girl ever she's funny, beautiful, smart as hell, she made me wanna be a better person (hell she actually made me a better person), she even got along with my weirdness. I took her for granted and flirted with another girl and she dropped me like there was no tomorrow. She said to act like she never existed and for six months I did it, it killed me but I did it. The looks she would give me whenever she saw me broke my heart into a million pieces. I tried talking to her once during those six months because one of her friends said she wanted to talk to me. My hopes were high I immediately thought she wanted to try and work things out I went to talk to her. The look she gave me I will never forget it was a look of hate ad straight disgust, it made me cry. I was used to her looking at me like I was the greatest thing in the world and her hugging my arm as we walked since she's so small and I'm a pretty big guy. I miss when we'd just sit there, her hugging my arm, with a big smile on her face and we'd talk about movies for a good hour. I would stay up all night just to watch the movies she loved so I would know em. Hell she even got me to watch High school Musical. Doesn't sound like much to you guys but I swore I'd never watch those movies I ended up loving them though. She even got me to watch all of Supernatural in two weeks. I got little to no sleep those two weeks. XD I really regret not knowing what I had if I could go back I'd never take her for granted I'd love her the way she deserves to be loved. We're finally talking again though and this is the part that gets me the most even though it should be a good thing. Her friends say she still likes me but that she'll never admit it and everybody knows I'm still in love with her heck I bet she knows already too. Thing is though that when we talk she talks to me the way she used to and I get that look of wonder every now and then but I can never really tell how she feels. She'll do what seems to be flirting but it could also just be the way she talks and it tears me apart. I want to tell her how I feel and all but when I get the chance all my courage just leaves my body in the blink of an eye and I'm left powerless. I had the perfect chance prom night actually. Her date knows how crazy I am about her and he let me steal her for a slow dance. We held each other so damn close it was pretty much just a hug the entire time. I loved it. She went to the bathroom so damn fast after that song was over and she brought her friend with her my cousin said they were talking about me I'm really not sure if it's true or not. Anyways when she came out we were sitting together talking and I could've told her then, I should've. That same night her a bunch of our friends and I all went out to eat as a group. She rode with me and my date and she left her stuff in the car. She ended up leaving a little early with her friend because they were tired, so I walked her to my car she got her things and she stood there and it looked like she wanted a hug but I wasn't sure so I didn't go for it. I should've hugged her and told her how I feel. Now we talk every night till like two in the morning about movies and movie quotes I finally watched the Adams Family she loves Wednesday Adams and she says I'm like Pugsly. I think things might be working out but I also can't stay silent about my feelings and get friend zoned. I've gotta get over my childish fear and let her know. If she doesn't feel the same way any more than at least my heart can rest easy I guess.
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I feel bad for you but you have to tell her sometime that you love her.
I can tell she feels the same way. -
Wow....
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f---ing go get her man, spill your heart out.Win back her trust.Prove to her that you'll be a better man and never let her go.
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breakingdown NewbieI saw her today and she looked so beautiful. I was actually about to tell her how I feel but when I got to her it felt as though I had no bones in my body. I was so weak. She cripples me.
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breakingdown NewbieI think I'll just ask her if she wants to go to dinner, and tell her then. Perhaps my nerves will calm down after being alone with her for a while. I don't know if it sounds to good I don't even know how to ask her to dinner. She lives in a town that's like thirty minutes away and she's usually never there she's always out with her family this time of year. I think I'll just hope for the best and ask her straight out. What's the worst that can happen?
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