I'm sorry, but I'm going to vent..
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Thread Topic: I'm sorry, but I'm going to vent..
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Uhg, where do I even begin.. You know, I'll start with the pills.
I don't know if I mentioned this, but I've been given medication. Two kinds. One is an antibiotic, which is supposed to cure some 'raging disease' (which is on my arms) that I have. The other is to stop my panic attacks in the night. It drugs me so that I can sleep without panicking. Or scratching my arms.
And those things have side effects. Sleepiness, loss of interest, and depression. So I've been really out of it recently. And it makes me feel so weak and so stupid, that this is how my life is going to spent if this doesn't get fixed. Maybe I won't have my attacks, but hell I'd much rather have them than be depressed like this all my life. :/
Second, we're moving. And that causes so much stress to me because I keep remembering the time I moved from Mexico. Though this time is a lot less.. sad, the thought still haunts me.
And I have memories in my house. It's been five years, but my mom says we need to find some places cheaper.
So that and the pills.. They affect me. Really, the stress is overwhelming.
And the CSTs I keep thinking about.. I probably didn't pass. Now I'll have to retake algebra. :/ And that's really one of the biggest disappointments ever.
And there's a lot of other stuff, but it'd be waaaayy to much to mention.
A lot of times I tell myself that I won't cry, and I never do. But it hurts to know I'm keeping this all in me and that no one will ever listen to me in real life.. I guess maybe that's it. I'm becoming insane. Maybe these pills are the warning sign that in ten years, I'll be in a mental hospital.
But for the present, the problems just keep piling up to the point where I can't support myself anymore. :/ -
just let it out vegekaka, it would just make it worse if you hold it in, I hope things get better for you
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Aw Arisu, you're not insane, you're having a lot of stressful crap go on and it's only normal to need to let it out. :o
I really wish I didn't live so far from you, and I wish I could do something in real life to help you. You don't deserve any of this, and I want to help stop it. I've feel the same way a lot of the time to be honest but I know that it can't be this way forever. I know life is hard and unfair, but I just keep fighting, and sometimes that means we have to cry, and let out all the pain and crap inside us or it builds up too much. We need to know there's someone there that loves us and will comfort us. And despite our distance, I hope I can be one of those people for you. *hugs*
Just let go of what worries you, and try to relax (though I know that's much easier said than done). Breathe, and if you're ever up for it, pray. Everything will work out in it's own way. I know since I'm a bit older a lot of things I never thought I'd get through, or thought would never end, have and it makes you feel good to know you've gotten through them. I believe life is full of lessons and is a journey, and even if things are hard as hell and we don't deserve it, we learn. I just wish I could help make things easier. :\ -
I swear. Go to Khan Academy.
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Alice, you know I have my phone with me the majority of the time, and you can call me anytime, right? ;.; even in the middle of the night, I won't EVER be mad if you wake me up at like 2 AM. If you need someone to talk to, go ahead and call me. I'm here 24/7 (except maybe when school's on, but we're in the same time zone so it won't be a problem.)
But I'm sorry there's so much going on, Alice, I really am, I just want things to get better for you.
If you really feel that bad, sometimes crying is good, finding a release will make you feel better.
I'm sorry you're so stressed, too, Alice :/, I honestly don't know what else I can say that Ana hasn't already covered.
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