Love Life...
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Thread Topic: Love Life...
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My first real girlfriend got together with me around eary june last year. My first real girlfriend was Lyssa. :)
Her and I dated for a month before we seperated. In that month we were very passionate. But we were attacked. If we made a sex thread, it was insulted, bashed, and spammed. If we just talked sweetly to each other, we were interrupted and insulted some more. It really hurts me to see everything that eventually led to her and I splitting up being so freely exercised in the place it was until recently alienated in. I broke up with Lyssa. I told her I wanted to be friends and we still are to this day. But now every time I come on here it is a laughing reminder of how cold life can be.
After I was with Lyssa I found Taylor. She wasnt exactly the most thought out decision in the world. I was depressed and alone and she was in the same position. I didnt understand why she was where I was though. And sadly, I didnt care. I devoted myself to her. I worshiped her. And it wasnt even a week and she betrayed me. She started seeing another guy and cheating on me. For the second week of our crumbling relationship I tried to make things work and I tried to fix things and keep them together, but it all exploded in my face when I found out that my useless attempts at fixing it, was only hurting her. I was making her feel so conflicted that she was tearing herself apart on the inside. On that day, I curled up into a ball and died. I had accepted that I could never care for someone without hurting them.
I was forced out of that state though. A good friend of mine, Amanda was having issues. I cared for her and she needed someone to talk to I was there for her. I didnt let her know about my issues or anything else. She needed help and that was that. Her long distance boyfriend was demanding things of her. He was wanting her to do things for her that she shouldnt of had to of done, and she didnt do. I had to work them through their break up and it went down smoothly. On July 21st, 2010 I asked amanda if she would want to date me.... She said yes.
Her and I spent almost an entire year together. ten months into our relationship, we broke up. Things were going too fast for me and just like everywhere else, I felt like I was playing doctor more than I was actually talking to her. She came to me and had to complain to me about every little thing. Her and I broke up for nearly 3 months, but the plans to meet were finalized and we were destined to see each other. When we did, the best thing happened; we fell back in love. Seeing her reminded me about every reason why I loved her in the first place. We were back together by the second day. Sadly though, my stupidity had come at a terrible price.
In the three months that we were apart, half a dozen other guys had thrown themselves at her. I personally know 3 of them. There is a guy on xbox live who wasnt very serious about it who i am now friends with; but he's not the one I'm worried about. She now has a neighbor with special needs who likes her. The kid is twice her size and she is afraid that he is going to try and force himself onto her. Ontop of that paranoia, the boyfriend who I helped break up with her has found her again. And now he wont leave her alone with very sexually explicit messages and personal questions.
She is misserable with all of this drama and it's all my fault. I live 800 miles away. I cant protect her from her neighbors. And I can only talk to her online, so I cant protect her from those predators either. My mistake has made her life a living hell, and yet she is still staying with me. I hate myself so much for the amount of damage I have caused and yet I cant fix any of it. -
Jillpaige15 Newbieid tap dat
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:C Ork don't hate yourself :\ I really don't know how to reply but I want to say something that will make you cheer up but I can't think of anything... Man I hope things will get better for you :\ and Amanda.
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Jillpaige15 Newbieid tap dat too
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Jillpaige15 Newbie[b] id so tap dat s---
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^^^ wtf?
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Jillpaige15 Newbieyo you mind if i tap you so hard in the ass
you should check out my quiz its call "your orgasm" but seriosly thats its name -
Jillpaige, what the hell is the point of that? >.
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Jillpaige quit spamming. This is serious.
And no, you cannot tap me hard on the ass.
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