"can't the future just wait?"
Thread Topic: "can't the future just wait?"
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Damn, that sucks
lmao alg, gn! -
yeah, but there's really nothing i can do without ruining my life more.
am back from the sleep, tho i wish i could've slept in more. i didn't get great sleep.
my arm was hurting pretty bad yesterday, and i had woken up in the middle of the night bc of it i think. -
istfg if my other arm starts hurting, i'm gonna lose it-
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i've had enough bulls--- to deal with bc of my mom, so i don't want to be in any more pain than i already am in.
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i srsly slept like s---, jesus-
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i'll be honest,
lookin' at you got me thinkin' nonsense~
cartwheels in my stomach when you walk in,
and when you got your arms around me~
ooh, it feels so good i had to jump the octave~
i think i got an ex but i forgot him,
and i can't find my chill, i must have lost it,
i don't even know i'm talkin' nonsense~ -
imsoclueless Senioris she trying to make me have a mental breakdown?
does she not know how nerve wrecking giving a phone call to some random person makes me?? -
imsoclueless Seniorand like, can we take things one f---ing step at a time?
you're tryna make me get my license in like, two weeks, and i've just started studying-
like, jesus christ, slow your f---ing roll- -
imsoclueless Seniori wanna rip out my intestines, throw them in the sea,
i wanna raise the money to invest in plastic surgery.
i wanna cover myself head to toe in super sexy scars,
'cause i mean, aren't you supposed to burn if you're a star?
i want to be torn apart excruciatingly,
i punish my body 'cause it's not good enough for me.
the scary thoughts are spreading like a weed,
the thoughts that say that i deserve to bleed. -
imsoclueless Seniori wanna take a knife and draw a line across my chest,
i wanna feel much better than i do when i am at my best.
i wanna fly away from my own skin and find a better place.
i wanna slash across what used to be my face.
i want to be torn apart excruciatingly,
i punish my body 'cause it's not good enough for me.
the scary thoughts are spreading like a weed,
the thoughts that say that i deserve to bleed. -
imsoclueless Seniorthey say that it gets better, but i guess that was a lie,
i guess we all just fake it 'til we die.
sympathy and love we can extend to someone else,
but it's harder when you have to love yourself.
i want to be torn apart excruciatingly,
i punish my body 'cause it's not good enough for me.
the scary thoughts are spreading like a weed,
the thoughts that say that i deserve to bleed.
the thoughts that say that i deserve to bleed.
the thoughts that say that i deserve to bleed... -
imsoclueless Senior^
it's true -
imsoclueless Seniori'm gonna have a mental breakdown again, and it's all bc of her-
i wish she wasn't going to the camp, like holy s----
i don't think i can handle it again...
i'm just gonna avoid her at all costs, but if she brings her f---ing vape again, i'm getting her sent home.
on f---ing god. -
imsoclueless Seniori told my friend about the situation last night. she said that i should tell my group leader about the girl, but i hate confrontation. i'm not good at it. my bsf told me to tell my leader how uncomfortable i was around that girl, but it's scary. i don't want to ruin anything for anyone. plus, i'm just gonna avoid her with my bsf in my group or stay with my guy bsf(/crush). i may tell him about the situation, since his sister already knows (the bsf i talked to about the situation with last night). maybe he could help. but seriously, if she brings her vape, i'm literally getting her sent home. not gonna matter to her, anyways. not like she's gonna come back after this year. she said she wasn't because all her friends are leaving (bc they're moving up and leaving for college n stuff) so why the f--- go this year? like- i hate to say this because everyone should be able to come and experience the camp, spend time with friends and with the Lord, but- i genuinely do not feel comfortable around her... i seriously don't know why she's going if she's not going because she wants to further her relationship with God. if it's only because she wants to be with her friends, i-
i just don't feel comfortable about this... -
imsoclueless Seniorand like, i don't know what to do- like, do i just tell my leader? if i tell her, will it get back to my mom? i don't want her to know, because last year she mentioned something about how she was uncomfortable with the idea of that girl being in my group, and if she finds out about last year, what'll happen to me?? god i hate this so much, i need a hug T^T
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