Safe Place
- Locked due to inactivity on Feb 4, '24 3:54am
Thread Topic: Safe Place
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hate meeting ppl online bc u never even know if they're genuine or not ☹ like they can literally use ai for like anything and it'll be like ur talking to the ai instead of the person and like nty bro
plus in sum circumstances ppl have had other frens and jus straight up copied their response, like none of their replies were genuine lmfao
think id rather stick to irl ppl but i CANT bc im f---ING BANNED FROM SCOIALZING -
ah yes scoialzing my favorite pass time
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yim eyehd
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i jus want sum1 😞
i hate how strict the parents are. im not even allowed to socialize anymore -
now my life is completely dependent upon the internet and i genuinely feel like im going to cry but i literally cant
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im in my little bubble of isolation for a pandemic that doesn't exist.
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it feels like im being robbed of my years
i could be doing so much rn but i cant bc im not even allowed to socialize, leave the house (like go to town or any public place), i cant leave homeschool, and im trapped in all this religious s---. like every easter they have me 'swear ill bind myself to jesus and that if i say i will without meaning it ill be cursed forever' and like it makes me anxious. i want to say no but i cant bc they'll judge me
then they'll split bread and whatever red juice/sparkling cider/sparkling water they can find and say 'this is the blood and flesh of jesus and we are going to eat him" like b---- no im not a cannibal -
s--- im crying
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f--- off i can deal w it
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f---ing s--- stop crying ur so f---ing annoying get a grip
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ill watch smth to distract
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why am i always so angry
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It's fine to have different beliefs to your family, but it's classified as abuse when they force you into doing stuff that makes you feel uncomfortable or threatening you with sh--.
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It's also fine to be religious, but when you force people into stuff and make them feel anxious it's harassing. It's fine to tell them 'No, you're making me feel uncomfortable. Stop it.'
If they're kind-hearted and they believe in the morals religion is all about, they'll accept this. If not, they're extremists. -
hey hey, i appreciate u popping in n saying this stuffs <33
a lot of ppl with religious parents have a problem w telling their parents they're not religious tho. like, i respect my parent's religion n i luv my mum, but they can be super overbearing. ill read in my bible for between 40 mins to and hour each day, have to "repent" every time i sin, and my parent's laws are strict. like they literally jus banned me from socializing bc "people are bad influences" and ive been venting abt that a bit
i remember one specific time last year i asked to go trick or treating for the first time bc i wanted to go w sum friends, since i'd feel super left out if i didnt go bc it was meant to be a sort of bonding experience and jus hanging out n such. but my parents were convinced i had a demon in me, told me to go repent, told me my friends were "bad influences", threatened to homeschool me and take me out of public school (and they did, now i cant leave homeschool), and took away a social media platform i used to contact my friends therefore cutting all contact between me n my friends
there's been a lot of similar and worse experiences, but i dont remember majority since i barely even remember my childhood. probs should have know it would end badly but ig im rebellious lolol
that leaves me KNOWING that if i tell my parents im not religious, they'll do smth drastic, like take away the internet, which is literally what my life is dependent on rn bc my social life's been cut off.
ik when i turn 18 im leaving and never coming back. ill have contact, but ill make it clear that im not going to visit and im not a believer
but im scared that if i tell them im not a believer before i turn 18 that they'll kick me out, exorcise me, make me spend every second of the day in my bible without free time, or smth more drastic bc they're known to be rlly strict, overbearing, and jus known to take things ti drastic measures.
it feels so unfair bc all my siblings can move away UNDER 18 bc they have another parent or a grandmother they can rely on and that my mum trusts
meanwhile i have no family members i can trust other than my mother and closest sister. im currently living w my mother, and i asked her if i could move in w my closest sister once she was 18 bc we had made an agreement that if mum agreed, we'd find an apartment and move in together and start making profit off jobs
but my mum refused. so now im jus stuck w her
its so unfair, they get some leeway n then im stuck in this stupid bubble jus bc i have nobody i can trust or that my mum trusts
maybe this is a bit selfish of me to say. im happy my siblings got away but i jus wish i could too
i understand other ppl have it worse and that this situation doesn't even compare to what other ppl are going through. it just hurts
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