Safe Place
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Thread Topic: Safe Place
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I'm back. And I've found Jesus; and boy is He great. It's only been two days, but I have never felt such a profound sense of longing to know Him. 💛🙏
We went to Washington to look at houses three days ago and returned two days ago; during our time in Washington, there was one house in specific we looked at that my mother described as being so oppressed by demons she physically could not stand there without getting dizzy and/a headache. I found this curious, so I queried her further on it once we got back in the car; at the time I hadn't really noticed because it was subtle, but when we had left that house and went into the front yard, I had been lightheaded for about two minutes before it cleared up.
In the car, my mother and step dad were rebuking any spirits from following us home, essentially binding the evil away from us and asking God to protect us against any that might try to oppress.
I closed my eyes and focused on what I was feeling while they were rebuking any spirits around us; it was so subtle, but it felt like something was physically grabbing my heart when they were finished praying for protection. It feels like something you feel when you're laughing; that pressure in your chest, almost like your heart is exploding, though in a happy sense.
I was already happy prior, but I just felt ecstatic. Such overwhelming joy that felt like it would burst. I felt lightheaded for a minute, glancing out the window and just observing the passing objects as I tried to brush off the confusion I carried because of that.
When we returned home two days ago, I lay in my bed staring at the schoolwork I was doing on my mac because I haven't much else to do besides school. Just pondering what that might have been, everything that had transpired in Washington, and how curious it was knowing my mom has such a strong relationship with Christ that she can just... feel spirits.
And that got me thinking to how I felt lighter when she rebuked any spirits surrounding us. How there was a chance that there was a demon oppressing/inside of me, because in an average person, there are demons everywhere inside of and/or oppressing them. An example is habits; any habits/addictions/sins someone has or does, let's say drugs, alcohol, p---, homosexuality, witchcraft, etc., is a demon manifesting/oppressing. Every temptation someone has outside of wanting to come to know Christ is a demon oppressing that person into wanting to do that.
The only way out of anything is through Christ; Jesus Christ is salvation. The LORD God is salvation. A person can not bring salvation for themselves, and neither can a fallen world.
Last night, I was watching some preachers do their thing and preach, more commonly Nick Jones who reacts and adds on to christian topics, and Nicholas Bowling who's a very bold but loving preacher who does street preaching about the gospel.
I read in the Bible after that.
And then I decided I'd pray. I got into prayer, and was about to simply say my prayer, but I broke down; not wailing completely, but quietly sobbing as I confessed to my sins and asked for forgiveness because I do not deserve God's mercy. Nobody deserves God's mercy; He is absolute perfection, love, mercy, power, grace, all of it. And I'm a sinner; I don't deserve any of His grace, mercy, love, yet he's such a loving God that he gives every sinner an opportunity and free will to choose Him over sin. It's such a beautiful thing because you think about all the terrible things you've done, all the terrible things everyone else has done, how God doesn't need any of us, but He desires to have a relationship with us.
I'm at the beginning of this walk with God. I just want confirmation from Him that I'm doing this right and that I'm meant for His kingdom even if I don't deserve to be.
And even after asking for solidification that I'm doing this right, that I'm establishing the beginning of my relationship with God by prayer, listening, and reading, even if He does not reply in the sense that I want Him to, I still know He exists. I've seen everything He's done for my mother. I've seen everything He's done for the christians and pure of heart surrounding me. I've seen His works; even if I'm still yet to have a personal experience with Christ, I still have faith, belief, trust, and love in Him. -
I'm going to leave again. I'm leaving this here for anyone that might want to come to known Christ :)
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i realllyyyyyy needed to put myself out there lol
voice chat is so great cud its like a fast food place but for friends -
like instead of "big mac" or "mcflurry" its all "goober" or "cruella"
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lol that was also, certified, the most random experience of my life ever
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HAHAHHA just take an ac unit outside and plug it into a potato for power if you get too hot in the summer
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hoo boy my sleep schedule can't keep doing this. rip my soul cud its literally 6:30 and i haven't slept
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*in a decade*
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is okay, huhuhuhuhu
is okauyyyyyy -
im afraid of, if i get too close to a person, they'll just drop me
i need to stop being afraid. its keeping me from continuing a friendship out of fear they'll leave:( -
also i have granny ankles my ankle actually hurts so bBAAAAAAAAD right now 😵 i already have senior discounts on my main acc for the label and now im going to have senior discounts for crippled ankles
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i scored 120 iq on raven's progressive matrices im so happy
i dont even care if its not accurate lol (which its most definitely not because in no WAY would i have more braincells than i can finger count) cud i have something to brag about to myself in my mind for the next two hours before my next existential crisis -
also i finally discovered the loomis head method and its literally modern day jesus. its performing miracles and its def a progression from my blob that i claimed to have been human
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i swear it was human
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ive been drawing cartoons for too long. my world as i see it is turning 2d
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