Dancing In The Rain
Thread Topic: Dancing In The Rain
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And they believe these panic attacks are caused by me being afraid of not being able to breathe properly, which thus triggers the inability to breathe properly
Which honestly? It actually makes a lot of sense -
I ask Him for empathy and understanding and He graciously gives them, but I don't pray as much as I should. I hate that I might be slipping into a mentality where I ask Him for things and when He doesn't provide them, I get upset
Like He's not a vending machine, He is the Creator and He loves me so much He allowed His Son to die so I could be close with Him on a personal level. He always answers my prayers, but sometimes the answer is "No" or "Wait" -
I should love Him and respect Him more, and spend more time with Him but I don't and that makes me sad
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I used to think that punishing the human race for what Adam and Eve did was unfair, but I've come to realize that every human being truly is broken
Our natural tendencies are to be selfish, and unkind, and greedy, but if we're trained in the ways of the Lord (or at least trained to have common decency!) we can be better people. But we still have that sinful, human nature -
I wonder how many lives I have touched, and wonder who would come to my funeral. It's a morbid thought I know, but the idea of people coming in to grieve because I've touched their hearts is an oddly comforting thought
The idea that I could have meant so much to someone, that would make such a simple little being like me worth remembering, is deeply moving to me -
I also wonder sometimes if some people will ever truly understand the magnitude of my love for them
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They do not have to be deserving of my love, because love is not a conditional thing but a gift I choose to give
They do not need to care for me, in order for me to care for them
I pray for those who hurt me and pray for them to become better people, because even though they have caused me pain, and I don't want them to suffer
I just want them to change, so they can be happy with who they are and those around them, and so that they will never hurt those I love again -
If someone has hurt me, I may try to forgive them
But they no longer have a right to my trust -
I have been told that I don't have a mean bone in my body but noo! I do have a mean bone and I do get mad pretty easily, but I try my best to be a good person and to be kind to others
I have never regretted being a kind person, except for the few times when I held back an awesome roast lol
But kindness has always worked better than cruelty -
And I know some of you will be like "Spice what are you talking about, you can be a little demon sometimes" and yep, that is very true and I am naturally VERY defensive
But for the most part, I hope I am a good person -
I'm being really dramatic abt forgiveness considering the fact that the worst people have really done to me is bully me and manipulate me, like some people forgive when absolutely HORRIBLE things have happened to them because of someone and I deeply admire and respect then because that takes so much strength
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I don't swear, for several reasons
1. I'm typically around kids, so I don't want to accidentally let one slip
2. I live in a community where that is very much not acceptable!!
3. I wouldn't feel good, it would feel like I was doing a bad thing (not saying that other people swearing is necessarily bad)
4. The less I swear, the more shocking and impactful it will be when I DO swear, even if it's a little bit -
I want to cry but that would make me feel weak and tired
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I swear left and right lmao. Also if you’re feeling bad, please talk to me
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You're fine lol, and I'm not very good at talking about how I feel but thank you anyways
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