Venting Thread
- Locked by Carri04 on Oct 29, '23 9:13pmReason: Sorry you gotta deal with this.
Thread Topic: Venting Thread
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Oh, yeah, I actually used to do that but I filled all the pages of the notebook I wrote in lol. May get another one though.
Another way I help get my feelings out is by drawing while listening to calming music. Usually, I just draw things that represents how I'm feeling at the moment. -
I keep having these strange dreams...
It's somewhat disturbing and scary and---idk, I told one person about it once but that was a mistake. They said I should be in an Insane @sylum, but then they were a jerk so I don't know what to believe... -
That...probably makes people think I'm crazy lol, but I do still take strange fascination to things...I probably just need to get things together. No wonder I lost so many friends
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Even my mom says I should be more like my sister but I just---can't. Due to not being able to do that, she compares me and says "You're just like your brother." If I am, then that makes me a thief, jerk, and someone who destroys others physically and emotionally with an attitude. Am I like that? Well I don't think so. She thinks I'm bad. Well, I'm not the one who threatened to k1ll my own child thank you very much. What a lovely parent. I mean, life may throw her off edge, but she doesn't need to put everything on me. I'm not a Golden Child
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I lost everything because of her...I am mentally broken because of her...I'm scarred because of her...I'm not like my brother. Whenever I see my mom, all I see is my brother and it scares me. I never show it does because I try to stay strong but it scares me. I'm scared and stressed every second of my life. I don't want people to look at me or talk to me in public because they may be like the others...
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Oh god, just end the pain. I don't want any of these scars anymore. All I want is to die. I've been having certain dreams, all going around su1c1de. Maybe it's a sign...I really should start a plan, as backup if I'm really too weak to take it
Why is picking up the n33dle or Kn1fe so hard... -
I should sleep but I don't want to. I have dreams but idk if it's a nightmare or not. Most of them are either of someone coming for me, being trapped in a small space (I'm VERY claustrophobic), the world ending, committing su1c1de or falling off a roof, a dream that somehow runs around my broken mind's crazy thoughts, dreams of me being in an insane asylum or something similar to that, me getting bullied or @abused, me getting left at an orphanage, or other things like that...
Wish my dreams were farther away from reality... -
I wish I would be able to smile again. I really am the worst. I wish people didn't hang around me because whenever they do, I turn into a problem or a burden....
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I always scare people off before I even get to meet them. I'm nice but they wouldn't listen, I get it...
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Did I have a Panic Attack or something...? Idk if I sound stupid saying this--but I could never tell
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It's something...Idk what...
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Sry it took so long to get back to you because I was asleep, but I have crazy dreams like that, to. But usually I do not have dreams anymore for no reason. Don’t hurt yourself! Don’t run or else you are a coward. Does your mom treat your siblings like that?
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Yeah, my mom does. She sometimes threatens my siblings or fights them. She does it to my brother the most. And sure, my brother is pretty horrible, but still, my mom sometimes takes thing so far...she even made him bl33d once.
My mom acts like she cares sometimes, but it's really just an act. Plus, I'm a Diabetic and she's revealed many times that she just takes care of me so then others won't think she's a bad parent and also bc she doesn't want to drive me to the Hospital for emergencies. That's why she tries to keep me healthy. So--yeah, me and my mom don't have the best relationship ever. We used to be close until she kinda ruined my life and changed me -
Get some help, man. That is not a thing you need to be in. Don’t be scared to tell the authorities sounds like you need help
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Yeah, but there's no one I could really go to. I'm too afraid to say anything bc my mom watches me 24/7 and will probably lie to make her innocent. I think I'm fine though, I'm kinda used to this kind of environment, it's really always been this way, but it wasn't always with me before. My brother is a bully who gives me bruises and scars, my mom is just as @busive, yells at me a lot, and doesn't like me if I become a disappointment, my sister is okay, though she can't do much to help me, and my dad doesn't even care about my existence while claiming that he does. If he did care, he wouldn't have abandoned my family. That's not even all my problems. My whole life just sucks so bad. It isn't even worth it
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