Hey i'd like some advice.
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Thread Topic: Hey i'd like some advice.
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I am not sure if this is the best place to bring this sort of thing. I have an account on here that I think is senior or something but I don't use this site anymore. So I think I may have OCD and am planning on talking to a therapist about it but I felt like posting my main symptoms here as well in case someone who also has the disorder or knows a lot about it could point me in the right direction. Thanks!
The thoughts that stress me out the most are these:
-I am a bad person
-I will die young
-I am paranoid to the point where I am hallucinating things and may be schizophrenic
-something I do will inadvertently harm someone else
-Somethjng will get me (like a demon or some s---)
-I need to prove things about myself (my bisexuality is a good example of this. I feel like I have to convince myself and others)
the main compulsions I seem to do are these:
-If I don't do _____, than ______. (basically irrational behaviors. EX: "If I walk on the sidewalk instead of the side of the road, my family will die.")
-I try to never talk about the future because I fear it will make it turn out badly. If I say anything positive I get very anxious and feel dread unless I say "not to jinx it" afterwards.
-I touch my face or check a mirror every 10-20 minutes because I'm very anxious about the way I look and feel strong urges to 'adjust' my makeup.
-I have intrusive thoughts that disturb me or mental images of violence that cause me stress.
-I talk aloud to myself and repeat things over and over to try and sort them out. I plan interactions in public and outfits and basically everything and go over these plans over and over and over.
-I apologize for every behavior/thought even if I'm alone/seek validation for everything I do. (Probably why i'm posting on here)
-If I do something out of my normal routine and my day goes badly I will avoid doing that thing ever again. (I avoid listening to music or wearing certain things)
-I overanalyze everything
I have other symptoms but they're smaller and less important so I didn't mention them, I realize that I did still mention a lot. I don't expect a response for this but I'll check tomorrow or something regardless. Thanks again. It did feel good to type it out, anyways. -
The medicated life sucks. I am medicated and I don't like to do anything. It keeps me out of trouble though. When you can't control yourself is a good rule of thumb of when you should be on meds.
You should go to church more or maybe a Buddhist temple. I wish I found religion before I found a pill bottle.
But one of the rules of the forum is you can't give out medical advice so I won't say anymore. -
Le1F Experiencedit sounds like sademogirl
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@serge
thanks man, like I said any advice is appreciated!
@Le1f No I think i've been gone longer than that girl, although I do know who you're talking about
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